shizu404

I don't know. I just finished the book off. Maybe it wasn't meant to be the chapter it was supposed to be. Like I said before, I just don't have the heart anymore to keep on writing despite the promises I was supposed to give but. It was always meant to end off in such a unmeaning way, like a normal day. It was never to end grand with a high note. which I always intended for the book, it was meant to parody a bit on just being the right person and right time. A normal person in an odd situation where somehow, he's just. with people that he ends up loving despite their, well. reputation and fame. It was always gonna end like that anyways, wouldn't know what hit you since well. you just know they would be okay, even after the end. Which. 
          
          Now, I guess. that's it. 
          
          I'm done. 
          
          I don't have the heart anymore to keep on writing, but despite that. with you guys just being around and having to actually read, criticize and love my stories. That, I'll forever be grateful for. 
          
          There's no 3rd account, there's no more surprises. that's it. 
          
          I'm done and everything I've achieved for the last, 3 years doing this as both Shizu and Nagisa. it's been, a beautiful ride. on a journey that's meant to end anyways. 
          
          maybe, I'll return. who knows. not now. but sometime in the near or far future. even so, it'll bring me great joy to see you guys again in a different name or form. but, whatever happens. 
          
          you all have been the best, none of this wouldn't had happened if it weren't for you guys. all of you. and for that, I'm forever grateful for all of it. through those who stuck with me from the start as Nagisa or as Shizu. either way, you made me enjoy sticking around and write for you all. 
          
          for that, I salute you all. 
          
          I wish you nothing but all the best from now on. 
          
          That's it folks. 
          
          - Shizu/Nagisa

I would update and post but work makes me so tired and want to kms, hopefully I don’t die from exhaustion and get an update out for you guys soon

okay all the alcohol is gone, time to get back to writing

No updates for a while guys, been drinking every night and passed out since the last update. Will get a new chapter when I learn to stop drinking or out of alcohol 

https://soundcloud.com/nagisasrevenge/sets/return-by-death-human?si=9690d51ecc5a41ba8f01d7817b389501&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing
          
          I wasn't lying lmao, this is an entire album. Go listen to it or whatever while I write the next chapter lol. (still an in universe album but also you can still attribute it to my actual solo one man band lmao)

So I got this ‘Return by Death’ EP that I’m gonna drop for you guys. There’s a song called ‘Rei’ in it just to let you know that this is still an in-universe thing plus here in real life because I also needed a solo project. So yeah, I’ll be dropping it once I get everything done, artwork, the masters and everything.

if i ever dropped the playlists that i listen to when im writing these chapters for you guys, it would be a confusing pile because it goes from “oh hey Le Sserafim” to Slam then to Deathcore then to Hardcore then to Katy Perry then to Cigarettes after sex and then like I don’t know, probably the duck song or smth 

https://on.soundcloud.com/LjIbZh0hqsn2n4FlxS
          
          I should’ve emphasised I meant by tonight for me. I forget you guys don’t live near me at all. I don’t know, I might make an EP too. I literally have like 5 Return by Death songs that aren’t going on the Xhume stuff lmao. And remember, I literally make all the guitars, bass and vocals (except the drums, they’re just free tracks you can get off Youtube. I’m NOT programming drums it is PAINFUL) and mixing it and mastering it myself and I’m not a professional okay. Mind you this only started because I got bored one day, made the trio into a band and then was like “oh yeah I’m making this into an actual thing” and it’s just me doing shit

new return by death 2nite thats if i finish the mix in time because i got lazy trying to eq everything earlier

I genuinely got like more ‘Return by Death’ stuff on standby. Do yall genuinely like the music or not TT