shotgunsona

Nothing. Just SethJane in my mind right now. I think I'm going to explode if I can't find another fic and have to make one myself >a<

shotgunsona

Oh dear stars...I went through my drafts and I rediscovered that one Doki Doki Literature Club reader insert fic I did 4 years ago 0_0
          
          I feel quite fond of it since, and tender memories reprises when I think of it. It's still very much cringe all about...

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Okay. Don't my how my reading lists are organized, and surely don't question the contents. I'm talking about my newfounded obsession with Hazbin Hotel. And kore specifically the un?popular ship signed {RadioApple} I'll be for sure indulging and spending my time on these fics I've found here. Let's pray and see what it will do to Mt health. Presumably my mental health, because I am going mental over this pair, assumingly because I spent an hour analyzing, rewatching, and writing an essay over a 2 minute long fan animatic--it was the most gorgeous I've ever seen. Ok have a goodnight. Or a good day and afternoon. 

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Shoot. I've just got back into reading Black Butler again recently and now I have the urge to write a fanfic about it. More specifically, a crossover fanfiction. I'm already so busy with other things so I probably won't start a whole fic--maybe a oneshot, since I really need to get it off my back (I swear!). The problem isbi don't really know which characters would fit well into the B.B world? At this point, I feel like a Jujutsu Kaisen x Black Butler is doing it for me. I'm sorry, I know; it's all Jujutsu Kaisen these days for me... But there's a reason!
          
          I think I'll make a book for a collection of fanfiction concepts and ideas. Aight-i need some sleep haha.

shotgunsona

Harem. I wonder why harem? I mean I get it it's your dream to be loved and valued and validated, so go ahead. No judgement on that, go ahead.  I'm sick and bedridden currently but I want to make a ramble on this. In: Sona's ramblings

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And then I realized I need to work on my fic. I can't >_<
            
            I usually write on my computer but now I can't leave my bed without feeling s41tt7.
            
            
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shotgunsona

Okay, it's time for me to be honest with myself. Even though no one is going to see this, I need to let it out just so it can hit me.
          Soon my break is going to end and I realized that I haven't used that free time efficiently. I also feel burnt out and unmotivated, and kind of worthless...
          
          I know that some people are waiting for an update for Phantasmic. I even planned out all the character interactions, and development, and even how the story was going to go, I even have the next chapter all typed up but it doesn't feel satisfactory; it just feels like a waste. Some people really love how I started the story, but really, I just started the story it because I was bored and it wasn't supposed to be serious. At this point I want to revamp it and start all over,  it's just that I don't have the right feeling for it right now. it was a lazy start I'll admit it. I started that story when I wasn't feeling confident at all--at my lowest point. Which is also why it feels so awkward to read. I'll keep the book up, but know that I won't be updating it anymore. Who knows, maybe I might pick up the idea again in the year.
          
          Another thing I should change is the mindset I have about writing. I don't even have a big following here, but I still want to please people--it's just not good. The more I think about it I realize that it became more a chore to write--it's not, it's a hobby, and how I write is how I do it. For me coming up with ideas is easy, but trying to convey that through writing is pretty tough. But since then, I realized it wasn't so bad as long as I'm confident in myself, and i'm having fun. I hope to grow from this. Thanks for taking the time to read this. 
          
          Currently I am on Choso brain rot and I need to get it out of my system, so yes. I am starting another fanfic. For the time being I'll be taking a break on my Yuji fanfic, since I haven't decided whether I want it to be a wholesome fluffy story or a slow-burning angst. Suggestions are open.