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I'm taking my assessment tomorrow. ^^ I'll tell you how it goes.

Forgot to update—uhh, I am taking an assessment next Thursday for ADHD and depression. If it's like out of a certain number and it's like super high, I will go see a psychiatrist and get medicated.

Well, here's an update.
          
          I'm going to talk to my therapist about seeing what I have so I can cope with them better. And, my parents agreed. Surprisingly? 
          
          I'm going to ask Matt tomorrow. Maybe he'll help or give me a number for one. Who knows.

I officially hate everyone on my bus, except my brother. These mf's make fun of me and also literally show disgust on their faces, not to mention literally move away when I walk past them to find a seat. And, nine times out of ten, they'll put their feet up on the seat or put their bag there to prevent me from sitting next to them.
          
          But, like, what the fuck did I do to you?
          
          I've literally never spoken to anyone on my bus except my brother and I barely talk anyways! I just blast my music, and chill. I do nothing to anyone. 
          
          If someone finds my music annoying, okay, I'll maybe turn it down but it doesn't mean you don't treat me like some damn monster. Like, what the actual fuck?
          
          Sorry for the small rant but, I'm genuinely getting tired of this damn generation. 
          
          They think it's funny to make fun of someone with "curtain" bangs. It's just my hairstyle and I don't know how else I can cut it without looking uglier.
          
          I'm thinking of cutting it short like Albert's hair and maybe lose some weight so I can finally look how I want to. But, right now, I'm so unmotivated and I'm getting more sad, I don't know what to do.
          
          I'm also thinking of seeing a psychiatrist. I really think I might have ADHD, OCD, Depression, and anxiety. Most likely, from my parents. Because they have all of those, except OCD, as far as I know.
          
          My brother thinks he might be Bipolar, like my dad so, we might go together.
          
          I just don't think I could bring myself to ask. Which, isn't good, obivously. 
          
          

I just finished, "What's his deal?" 
          
          I hope that the conclusion is good!
          
          I surprisingly finished and did three chapters just in four hours!

Two entire chapters in one day? Wow.
          
          I finally did more uploads than usual.
          
          <333

So, I might've screwed up a bit! I didn't reply to one of my friends all day today since I was a bit busy and.. they thought I committed.. *that*. I feel so bad about it! 
          
          Well, I apologized and they said it's all good. But, I hope I didn't scare the living shit outta them. 
          
          To be honest, it's relieving to know someone cares about me, in that way. Not many people check on me everyday or ask if I'm okay. It's nice!
          
          Besides all of that jazz, we're cool now.
          
          Anyway, I might be making ANOTHER TodoBaku book. Dunno yet. I might make it based off something. It'll be cool though! I just have to come up with everything and I'll try to finish my current TodoBaku book before starting my new one in mind. I'll make sure to have it as a draft though!
          
          Okay, that's enough of that for tonight.
          
          Sweet dreams, shortcakes. 
          
          Shortcakes are gonna be my followers names now. I like it for some reason. ^^

My friend almost died and I saved her. I feel so accomplished and happy. She told me she loves me too. I feel so special! ^^!!! I'm glad my friend is okay and safe. She will be with her grandma and stuff for the time being, she said she's traumatized which is understandable! I'm just glad I could help her under pressure. <3

Update:
          
          I feel like shit. I have a headache and I can barely eat anything. I think I'm sick. 

Off topic but, my stomach has been hurting all day and yesterday too. I don't know why. I don't feel like I'm sick, I don't need to puke. Well, I'm not ready for school tomorrow. I have to go to new classes tomorrow for a new semester. And one of my teachers is my ex-girlfriend's teacher.. it's gonna be weird to be honest. She might ask me if her and I are still together but, I stopped walking her to classes after she cheated on me. I seriously shouldn't be thinking about her at 1AM. This fucking sucks. I'm giving myself a headache as I'm typing this fucking mess of a announcement. 
          
          Anyway, I'm tired as fuck, I should try to sleep. If I can't, welp, I'll be needing tons of coffee. I literally can't be passing out in school tomorrow. I need to focus and not be a failure for once. -_-
          
          I just cracked my hand and it felt good. I don't know why that's important but, whatever. :/