In 2019, he met her. He was the first to fall for her. She is not only attractive in his eyes, but she also makes him feel calm. He was unaware of the moment it occurred or how or why he could develop feelings for the girl, but he felt a strong sense of love. All he knew was that even though they weren't together, the girl had taught him the value of loyalty and longing. He could only get a distant glimpse of the girl every day. He was only able to put his love for the girl aside and become friends with her. Even if it hurts, that is the way he needs to interact with the female.
Today, he had loved the girl for the past four years, and he still does. It made no difference if he had to miss the girl, causing him to cry. He only cares about the girl's happiness, after all. He is also aware that the girl may not want to accept his thoughts and feelings if he expresses it to her.
Now, he is getting even more away from the girl. All he can do is pray on God to protect the girl and lead her through her day so that she won't suffer any hardship.
And that 'he' is me... who always want her to be happy every day.
-14/7/2022