I really don't know myself. Sometimes my behaviour, my decisions, my words suprise me greatly. I don't know what I'm upto. I just know that when the sky covers itself with dark clouds on some calm mornings or wears the blanket of heavenly beautiful light on a full moon my whole existence wants to get dissolved in the silence. And I sometimes, I want to lock myself in a box to tear every connection with this world.  I want to get lost in a world where no one knows me. I dreadfully beg to my owns can't you goddamn forget me, can't you just forget that I have ever existed. Is there any other unrested soul existing here who has no one to listen the terrifying screams? Answer me then.