mantan deadliners

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          • tw // self-oriented, temperamental, moody, sambat, stres.
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          ꪖ᥅shεrrγ
          

Don't blame me for being a Stay. I can't even choose my own life. People just keep telling me this and that. But, they didn't respect me, didn't teach me how to do it, and they never even saw the results of my work.
          
          On the surface, I was silent and did not act mischievous. People thought I was shy and anti-social. But they never tried to approach me, never tried to speak heart to heart. 
          
          Maybe, some of my friends in high school know that I often tell  them a piece of my stories suddenly. Only a short story and does not contain the entire plot. I always say at the time, "I just need a listener. Just listen to my story, it's okay not to comment on it" Do any of you really want to know what I want to say from that sudden piece of story?
          
          No, because I don't want you to know.
          
          To be honest, I want someone to really listen, respond to me even if it will hurt me. But after that, she/he will offer a number of solutions that suit my personality.
          
          This is very contradictory and complicated.
          
          Well, someone has promised me something. That something really motivated me to get the best results in new student enrollments on campus.But what. She's not giving me any clarity now. Many of my plans fell apart because of that.
          
          Until finally I began to forget what had motivated me at that time. I became Stay because I felt accepted there. Although many say, "don't idolize something too much, or you will feel very disappointed later." 
          
          So what? I have felt disappointed by those who I consider family. So it's no big deal to be disappointed once again by someone who doesn't even know me.

This is really suck. 
          
          Untuk apa selama ini aku mengabdikan diri pada mereka? 
          
          Yang pada akhirnya, ku dihempaskan begitu saja.
          
          Bahkan sekarang rasa cinta yang pernah kurasa, menjadi malu tak tertahankan saat menghadapi dunia.

belakangan ini aku baca banyak ttg kematian, kiamat dan ketiadaan. 
          seandainya aku benar-benar mati ketika keluarga dan relasi terdekatku masih hidup, apakah akan ada yg mengenangku?
          bukankah aku akan menghilang dalam serpihan kenangan yang semakin terlupa?
          lalu, untuk apa tahun-tahun yang pernah kujalani?
          akankah hidupku tiada berarti kecuali untuk diriku sendiri?

Terkadang seorang penulis akan meninggal karena ia terlalu mendalami peran tokoh ceritanya.

I hate this life. Ever.

I can't pretend I'm not worried. How annoyed me, I still love her and not willing if she was sick. God, please never let her get sick. I really love her even though sometimes it's awkward to communicate with her. She's my other half, the only one since You cherished my other wing more and took it. 
          I ask for Your help and generosity, ya Rabbi.

Sangatlah sia-sia sebuah skill untuk memperhatikan detail begitu jeli pada saat berkomunikasi dengan masyarakat yang acuh tak acuh.

Mentalnya lagi breakdown 

Karena suatu hal, terjemahan ACOFAS ku unpublish dulu :")
          I'm sorry