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Hi, everyone! May gusto lang akong ibahagi, this one kept me preoccupied and guilty at the same time. Nasaktan din ako pero siguro nga ay wala akong karapatang masaktan? Siya lang, I understand. I caused her pain...the pain that I didn't want her to get from me. Hindi ko ginusto, may explanation pero sino pa nga ba ako para magpaliwanag? Maybe what just happened to us is enough for her to think that I did it on purpose. It's okay, naiintindihan ko. This girl who I guessed hates me now to the fullest makes me think I'm such an asshole and stupid. She even said she won't forgive me...I guess no matter what I do? I don't know. Pero sana kung nababasa niya 'to, don't just hate me without hearing my explanation, please? Pero sige, basta gusto ko lang malaman mo na hindi porke hindi ako nagparamdam ay ghinost na kita or ano man, you don't have any idea what happened just recently. We have a problem going on in our family, I got stressed with my academic performance when I saw my grade, I was pressuring myself to study hard para makapasa ako sa university na pangarap ng pamilya kong mapasukan ko kahit scholar lang and the thought that you would end up treating me this way is adding up. I even barely sleep because all these things keeps on bugging me every night and the only thing that calms my nerve is writing. I wasn't allowed to open my rp account because for some reason that I'm so embarrassed to even tell. Again, I want to say sorry. I know sorry is not enough but believe me, I am really sorry for what happened. SORRY...