simplemeia_18
Hey there, sMEIAle please!
I know it has been almost half a year since I deleted my works and well, I don't know about you but I kind of missed them, too. As a writer of no as in zero experience, I took writing as a simple "pass". What do I mean by that? I took my works as a proof that I am a writer even though, I've realized, no, I am NOT ONE. Two months passed, I felt the itch to write a new story but abandoned it on its 1st month. After 2 more months, thought of making another one but stopped before I even wrote it. I should have a plan. Yes, I should.
I was used to the essay type of writing. The type that you'll make now and later on abandon because it's just an essay with counted words, mostly informative, and you won't actually abandon it, you're leaving it 'cuz you're done. I knew I needed to stop that perspective and build a new one. One that makes me feel stable because,,, well I AM STABLE. I NEEDED TO BE.
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Also, please do not expect in the slightest that those new selections have a part of me. 乁༼☯‿☯✿༽ㄏ ok well I was joking. All authors share a part of themselves in their works and that works perfectly for me.
I would also like to grab this opportunity to warn people to stay home and observe strict social distancing. Nobody deserves to be sick so please avoid the threat than have it cured. Always pray for the safety of others most especially the frontliners who sacrifice their time, effort and LIFE for us.
Sending a LOT of virtual hugs ⊂(´･◡･⊂ )∘˚˳° and kisses (◕દ◕),
aizelle
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All I know of this moment is that I am no bitch, not a whore, nor a slut. I get easily fumed yet, I don't let it break me like most people do. I don't recreate a broken piece, I try hard to mend it on my own special way. All of what I have shown the past half year was not ME. I was gobbled with anger, frustration, emptiness, A HECK LOT OF EMOTIONS; so should I say it was me? I believe it was ego and pride holding me up.
As of now, I have been planning to release a new selection on my special day (well, that is if I could do it). I tried to fix update schedules and regulate them. I don't always aim to be on top of a category, all I want is to have fun and to create another world, one out of others reach but I can envision possible.
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@simplemeia_18 Being indecisive and "too creative" is a disadvantage for me. I actually am not stating a fact rather an opinion. I couldn't finish a story because...well, I lacked determination, devotion on even one of the books. Every time I hear a new song, have a vibe going on, complicated things happening; I write them then I make another draft. That is what makes me a boring book-maker; LACK OF DEVOTION. I needed time and space actually. I anticipated the school year's end, I spent the first few weeks alone in my room (listening to a whole new playlist) and even found a way to isolate myself (ok, I didn't find a way to have chickenpox because I already had it before I even knew :<). And for me, a few months are not enough. I need to rebuild, regenerate, become a better me than "another me".
