the sin of mercy.

im so snug
          an eepy guy
          i <3 my bed

no because why am i so deeply upset because of cardinal copias impending death its just a band i shouldnt be crying about it

mmmmmmm ghost

estoy triste porqué te vas.

i hate stregobor >:((((

i want my mom and dad back. i want it to be the way it used to be.

but what i hate though is that my father and i's relationship is like loona and blitzo but also like stolas and octavia. like i love my dad so much, i love him with all of my heart. but there is always something between us. there is always some sort of tension between him and i. whether it be gabriel and i or the stupid fucking war, there will always be something that takes him from me and i fucking hate it. 

i literally love that the dynamic my husbands and i have is millie and moxie like yes slay on my pard

wattpad deadahh was like "someone has notified our staff that you have had intentions of harming yourself, have you spoken to friends or family members about your struggles?" 

tw: suicide, self harm.
          
          
          i genuinely want to kill myself. my son has died. i see no real point in living. the only reason i am still alive is because of alcohol. ive tried all the doctors. but its never helped. they never listen. no one ever listens. i genuinely dont think anyone would miss me. ive been harming myself and i cant stop. nothing is working.