Tara

Hi 

hyeTARA. The first time I read the description of The Notebook Project, I found this story a little bit related to my life. And, i love yours story.

@KathleenOliviaDaley I'm rarely a jeans-and-a-tee shirt kind of girl. I wore jeans today, and I actually had to change midway through the day because it was too weird. Haha you feel like Artemis Fowl, that was an epic comparison... 
          You know, I didn't know apples were negative calorie foods until you told me. But you know, I should probably eat an apple. I haven eaten in two days, and th day before that, I purged. I'm so disappointed in myself. 
          It was so funny, at the time it really wasn't. Now, I think it's absolutely amusing. I mean at most, he lost the two brain cells he possessed. Which to be honest, wasn't really a loss at all. :p 
          I love Great Expectations. I love Estella. She was raised by her crazy scorned aunt, Miss Havisham, to break boys hearts because Miss Havisham was left at the altar and wanted to get revenge on the male species. It's a lovely book. It's my favorite. I also love Perks of Being A Wallflower. I read it before the movie came out and it got all big. It's weirdly written, and the grammar is annoying sometimes, but you can't help but love Charlie. I read young adult love stories, fantasy, fiction, and some non fiction. I'm not a big history person. I like history, but I can't tell you every date about everything from the top of my head. I'm a cynical romantic, which is pretty strange to be. I am the most negative person I know, yet I'm a huge romantic. :)
          I watch Friends way too often, as I said before, I can watch it anytime. I have a love for Ross and Rachel. My romantic side just adores them. They are just too cute in a weird way. 

@KathleenOliviaDaley Me too! I stand out a lot, as I'm pretty vintage. Like I wore red lipstick everyday my senior year of high school. I wear heels, and I'm always in some outfit I could easily wear to work. Getting over anorexia is really hard. Like you, I can still go for days without eating. But I usually try to eat something once a day. It's never big, sometimes it's just one slice of an apple, but it's something. 
          I'm not a very angry person, I can say I've really only gotten angry with people a couple times. I'm very anti violence and to be honest, I'm probably a pacifist. I don't hit anybody, or hurt anyone really. Ever. The worst I've done is thrown a ring back at my ex and accidentally hit him in the face. And it was an accident, I swear, I tried to leave it on the seat but he wouldn't take it. Although now, I am guilty to admit, I do find it really amusing. :p 
          I'm the same way. I don't think the average teenagers understand me at all. I love Harry Potter. More than I love Great Expectations, which was my favorite book for a long time. (There is something about Estella I just love. My car is named after her haha). I also love Friends. I can watch Friends for hours and never get sick of the show, even though I've watched every episode a million times. 
          Yeah you area few hours ahead, I'm California. It's still early(ish) here, and I'm trying to persuade myself to go back to sleep. I close tonight at work, and I'll be half asleep by then if I don't at least try to sleep. 

@KathleenOliviaDaley I don't believe in conforming to society. It's probably why I'm so weird. I like to be me, and nothing society says will change that. My anorexia began because I wanted control, and so I started controlling how much I ate and my weight, until suddenly my anorexia began. And now, I'm trying to get over it but it's hard. 
          I have actually called someone a dunderhead to their face. But it was only once... And they deserved it. 
          I was going to use acquaintances too! Goodness, what is with our similarities? It fits best as I haven't personally met you. It is fun to say sexually promiscuous, and be glad you aren't. They have not an ounce of intellect in them. it bothers me to no end. 
          I'm glad you don't try to be me, that would be weird considering you didn't know I existed until a few days ago. :p
          That is true, I don't think I know anyone who knew what star trek was in high school. 
          Another one of college's advantages: no need to go to bed at a reasonable hour. That, and I'm pretty sure you aren't on pacific standard time, because that means you stayed up until like 8 pm haha. And quite frankly, I don't know anyone who goes to bed that early. But kudos to those that do, as I'm way too energetic for that. 
          

@KathleenOliviaDaley Technically, if I was to put it together, I spelled tramauric, which seriously is not a word, or at least to my knowledge. :p
          You know, I couldn't for a long time, toothbrushes were uncomfortable. Eventually, I just willed myself to, which is way worse. I've never spoken to my parents about it. I'm sure they know, but they trust me to do what's right. I have three younger brothers, and they never could understand why their sister didn't eat with them. Honestly, I'm probably still considered anorexic by most people. But because I know how much worse I used to be, I don't consider myself anorexic anymore. 
          We are seriously alike personality wise. Now, I cannot vouch for looks, but personality wise, you are like a younger me. It's strange, but refreshing. 
          I almost used the word dunderhead then refrained because I thought it might be offensive! Oh goodness, we are seriously alike. You know, you aren't completely a stranger. I mean, usually I ignore strangers. I mean I have been talking to you so, I don't consider you a complete stranger. But thank you, I appreciate it. You are seriously better than the sophomores that went to my high school, they were pretty much just known for how sexually promiscuous they were. You seem pretty mature, have a brain, and you actually use it. And, somehow, you manage to be a lot like me. I think you are pretty much the coolest sophomore I've ever met. Seriously. 

@KathleenOliviaDaley I wanted to shoot myself in the foot when I saw that I mispelled it haha. :p 
          I used to procrastinate, now I'm way too organized and OCD to wait. I start freaking out if I don't do an assignment a week in advance.
          You know, I'm a recovering anorexic and recovering bulimic. Never do both of those at the same time. It sucks. There is no better way to describe it. I don't recommend either, but I understand the way it is, and how hard it is to stray from being anorexic. Even now, I can go days without eating and not being hungry. I eat one meal a day, at most. I know how hard it is. I know that after I eat, there will be this pit in my stomach, and I know how easily I could rid myself of it. I never ate in high school. I starved myself until eventually I wasn't hungry anymore. And when I was, I'd purge it so I wouldn't gain a pound. I still slip up, like today for instance. It's a terrible disease. I understand completely. I don't judge anorexics, because I'm one of them. 
          Why yes, I do major in psychology and minor in philosophy. What a coincidence that you want to do the same. If you had went to my high school, I would have probably liked you. You would have been far more interesting than the mindless people with no personality I went to school with. You're at most probably two years younger than me. I'm a seventeen year old college sophomore. It's pretty unheard of, I know. I was always considered far more mature in high school, and I'd like to think I still am more mature than my college classmates who enjoy partying and drugs. I'd like to believe my intellect supersedes them, as they have no drive to do anything besides drink and part, but for all I know I could be just as immature as them. 
          

@KathleenOliviaDaley First off, how did I mispell traumatic? Like seriously. Even when I just typed it, I mistyped it haha. 
           You know, college is like high school, only easier to slack off. I love the ability to create your own schedule though. I only go two days a week, for four hours, you can't beat that. :) 
          Heels get more comfortable as you adjust to them. I have always been small, so heels became necessary when I started seeing a guy who was 6 ft 5 inches. I got really tired of getting neck cramps from looking straight up haha. :p Being 5 feet exactly, is a curse. My eleven year old brother is taller than me, which bothers me to no end. 
          You know, we all desire to be thin I think. I mean I'm fairly thin; I'm not a stick, yet I definitely am considered skinny, I  mean I can still wear kid's clothing, and yet I still wish I was skinnier. I am a perfectionist, so I understand that, although I've been told I'm probably borderline OCD, as I'm very organized and particular about things. 
          And you know, that would be interesting. To have no regrets. If one has no regrets, I wonder how their morals would be altered... One could assume that therefore they would not only rationaize differently, but their sense of morality would probably also be severely skewed because they wouldn't regret the decisions they make. Sorry, I went on a tangent. This is the problems of a psychology major who minors in philosophy, we get distracted by people's behavior. You intrigue me, you are not what I expected at all mthen again, you probably aren't much younger than me. 

@KathleenOliviaDaley Oh goodness, at, least he hasn't yet. I can only imagine how tram auric an experience that could possibly be. 
               I'm officially on Christmas Break, so no essays for me for a month or so. Best part of college, if I do say so myself. 
               I wanted to be a CIA Agent one time, a very long time ago! I'm fairly petite, I'm 5 ft and really small, most unfortunately, so I can understand why people think I'm so young. I live in heels, though. I honestly, with the exception of work, am always wearing heels. So, that may contribute to the age thing, because usually only older women wear heels on a daily basis for no reason. 
               I don't mind. I think I desire most understanding. I had a really awful portion of my childhood that has forever scarred me. I think I'd love clarity on why it had to be me, or maybe just an apology. It'll never change what happened, but I'd like to understand that aspect. I don't want to understand everything in the world, just that one little thing, because it altered who I am. Or perhaps happiness. Just pure happiness. No catches, no reasons why, just happiness. We, as sentient creatures, rarely have true happiness unless we acquire something, whether it be materialistic or otherwise. And what about you? That's a fairly random question to ask someone. Is there a reason behind it, or just merely curiosity? 

@KathleenOliviaDaley Haha yes, I can only imagine the horror that must be. :p 
               See, I talk too much. I can talk for hours about any topic. One time, my civics teacher gave me my topic for a debate and it was socks. I spent five minutes debating about socks. I talk all the time. Just not to anyone though. I don't like a lot of people. Mainly because people annoy me. Not sure why, though. 
               I said pretty normal. I did not say absolutely positively normal, I said you have a high chance of being at the very least, semi-normal. I don't think anyone is normal. 
               That's definitely true, you probably will not get mistaken for faculty at thirteen. I'm super vintage obsessed. I dress really formal and pretty vintage inspired. Unfortunately, everyone assumes I'm either 14 or I'm in my mid twenties, there is never a gap between the two. I can't say I understand how I can look both 14 and 25 at the same time, though. 
               Sounds like January for me. I'm super stressed for that lovely month, and it hasn't even arrived yet. I do firmly believe, that everything will eventually get better though. I mean, I had nine years of insanity and waiting, and now I'm finally getting the one thing I desire most, only to realize that it's the most difficult thing I've ever experienced emotionally, mentally, and physically. But it always gets a little bit better.