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dear everyone,
since the beginning of 2017 ive been having a few heart and breathing problems. sometimes, my heart beats really fast and it's really painful, i'll feel dizzy and my vision gets blurry. it's honestly very scary, it makes me think that i might die soon. honestly, as much as i talk about death, im not prepared to leave my family and friends. im not ready to die and meet God. this feels serious and i know im stupid for not going to the doctors any sooner but everytime i tried to go, id back out. i don't wanna be the girl who's sick. but i might be. so please, keep me in your prayers. you might not believe in a god, but i do. i believe that he might hear my prayers and heal me. im hoping it's nothing serious but it might be. anyway, just please keep my stupid heart in your prayers.
also, if i die, forgive me for all the shit i did. don't wanna die with people angry at me.
- camila.