@siphonism      ෴      i    know    well    enough    that    i’m    a    rebound,      lizzie       ...       i    somewhere    knew    from    the    moment    i    found    that    song    in    the    binder    penelope    left    me;     it    just    makes    sense    now.          *  wiping    at    her    red-rimmed    eyes    josie    curled    in    herself    even    more.     it    was    hard    for    her    to    process    that    she    was    dating    the    boy    a    girl    she    so    heavily    crushed    on    for    a    long    time.     she    felt    awful    in    every    sense  *           hope’s    gorgeous,      heroic,      intelligent,      and    most    importantly    his    first    love.      i’m    not    special,      lizzie,      i’m    just    josie.       he    won’t    chose    me,      i’m    sure    of    it.             *  her    eyes    filled    with    unwanted    tears    once    again  *            i    didn’t    want    to    do    this    at    first.      i    didn’t    want    to    use    the    spell,      because    i    knew    it    would    hurt    someone.      i    just    didn’t    know    it    would    be    me.      but    that    wouldn’t    be    fair    to    hope      ...      and    as    much    as    i    disliked    her    and    still    want    to    hate    her,      i    had    to    do    the    right    thing    for    her.