I regret to inform you that you have a serious case what me and @Kirsten613 call OSD, both forms. Obsessive Shipping Disorder and Obsessive Stitchers Disorder. I recommend you seek treatment immediately. Common symptoms are being constantly emotionally dead, arguing with people about whether Camille should be dating Linus or Fisher(and the crazy people who ship Camina), excessive Netflix bingeing and fan fiction reading, and everyone outside of the Stitcherhood thinking you're f*cking insane.