I had a mental breakdown last night. For the first time after a very very long time. I broke down. I am a very optimistic person and someone broke that part of me that night. I had to be an troubled person and NOT okay for them to believe that THAT is me. That THAT is the okay me. If i said i’m alright and fine. They think i’m lying and hiding something. I pushed to the limits of confusion because they blocked me out without giving me a clear answer to why they did what they did. I reached out thinking they would talk. But they feign ignorance and kept saying i was pretending to not know. I was over thinking, stressed out and i just broke. I never wanted to feel like that. Never.