started to watch stranger things, im going for season 3, and you know... i remember 2016/2017 so vividly... or at least the sensation to be there. there weren't good years as a person myself, i've lost my friends, social anxiety and tca were starting to kick but i was little, and i had no f idea about what those things were, so i wasn't even aware about what was happening to me. and i remember shelter so much in here, in different fandoms but many of my friends were also moving to st fandom, their icon profile would be changed and the user would turn to something like "milevenforlife" or "inlovewithmillie" and it sounds stupid but all of it was just a VIBE, even when i was a foreigner there and was not actually seeing the show. and it was like that with many things... the posts on instagram, the beauty tips you would take screenshot to, the inspo, when your favorite actors would post a picture together... all of it, i feel so distant from it, it's probably out there still but not in the same way, not after pandemic or after trends in tiktok (i love tiktok tho), and even k-pop stuff doesn't feel the same. it all led me to think i've grown up, we've all grown up, it's not 2016 nor 2019 anymore... it's 2026 and i have a whole big hole of nostalgia in the stomach... which is good i guess, in 4 years i'll feel this way about the now time. but for now it's time to find out what to do with this whole energy, make art with all of these feelings.