sky19563

Heyyyyyy

Hey I got a new account this I it, I'm sorry for not being active in a long time

Shout out to you Sky19563. I know how pleasing it is to cut. Like it takes all your problems away. But only for a short while right. Not forever like you wish. I used to wish the same thing too. I didn't believe there was anyway I could find the way out of my darkness. I was crying myself to sleep so much, spending so many hours crying in the shower until I couldn't stand. And for days on end I couldn't speak. But I did have people there for me they just didn't know what I was doing behind a locked door. They didn't understand when they asked me what was wrong. I didn't tell them because I knew they would not know the pain and guilt I felt. They never would. So I'm still going through it by myself. But that's not way I'm here. I'm here because a special someone showed me how much worse some people have it. I don't know what happened to you to make you this way, but depression is hard. I know you know that. But don't give up, find a reason to create anger towards material items if you have to. Take that anger, and sadness out on something (not someone) and level it to your feeling. Find the in between of your sadness and happiness. And find the playing field between the two and work with it. It took my two years to do, but now, I'm glad I did. So I could try to help people like you. To tell you, not to call it quite's so soon. I'm telling you, when they push, push back. When you emotions create that safe bubble around you, rebel against that fake she'll and pop it. Even if you have to repeatedly.

When did I become so numb, where are my feelings? Where is the real me? I'm lost and it kills me...everyday slowly...

Thanks for following me

I just cut myself the familiar pain is like a welcome back card so pleasing...

Hi life, I don't like you

I think I just lost my close/best friend

I'm tired of living it just takes up way to much energy

I'm tired of faking...