simp4channie

Znalazłam najlepszy (dla mnie) sposób na wylanie emocji. Po prostu piszę co leży mi na sercu. Ale nie po Polsku, bo to brzmi tak prostacko. Po angielsku, bez tłumacza, pewnie czasem niepoprawnie, ale who cares? Na pewno nie ja ;^
          
          I just came back, again I cry, 'cuse I fought with her again and again and again over really stupid things. I could just do this, don't say anything. And whenever I'm feeling bad, complaining 'bout my life, this little voice sneaks inside and it's telling me lies. The problem is I'm starting to belive this. I'm starting to feel like I need a big hug from you, but then this little voice tell me to shut up. You already have your own problems, so I gotta be there for you, strong for you, can't make you having to deal also with my problems and I'm starting to think what she did bad, but then this little voice again 'it's all your fault, not her, you could just do your stuff, so stop copmplaining you attention seeking bitch' and I can't shut it up, I don't know how to make it stop, so I'm just lying here, crying again. I have just one thing to say. Pathetic.

OBSESJE TYGODNIA
          (nie, wcale nie ukradłam tego od nezz)
          album tygodnia: deadline od bp
          piosenka tygodnia: bling-bang-bang-born od creepy nuts
          żarełko tygodnia: mini pączuszki
          nie obsesja tygodnia: katar 
          dajcie znać jak u was, będę wstawiać co niedzielę, może bardziej rozbudowane, ale rn pisze one shota, którego chce w końcu skończyć, więc takie krótkie jest ;^

And I really don't understand myself, I don't know why I'm reacting like this? why am I like this? the emotions too big, i can't control them, they're coming out of nowhere, poisoning my brain, taking control, making me do irrational things, adults say: get your shit together, don't cry over nothing, you don't understand life and emotions, but as Billie said: "all we have is emotions" they're making us, who we are, they are so strong, so if somebody here doesn't understand emotions, it's not us, it's you, cuse' you forgot how it was, when you were our age, might say all this shit: "when I was your age...", but how many years ago that was? two decades? The times has changed, the world is different today. Why are we always the problem? You never see the blame in yourself, but as you said, you wanna help me with uderstanding all this stuff, well, cutting me out, from the ones who make me smile, who help me get trough hard days isn't helping and I'm not talking only about people. You have a problem, because I'm always listening to music, it's cuse' it helps to shut up this motherfucking voices, that are saying all the lies, their stupid lines, stuck in my brain and when I'm tired, just after another affer, cuse' I fought with you again, I overreacted again, I need silence in my brain, but you say I gotta rethink this, atleast just let me calm down or I'm gonna just blow again.
          
          part 2
          
          a więęc, jest to zlepek emocji, które wczoraj musiałam z siebie wyrzucić, jest strasznie nieskładne, nieidealne, ale moje i może komuś będzie chciało się to przeczytać

shut up! shut up! shut up! shut up!
          just shut up! please... 
          I don't even know what tey're saying, I'm not hearing any words. I don't understand my feelings it's only getting worse, I can't catch my breath there is just one way to shut them up and you're taking it away, you don't know what's inside me, I could try to explain, but even I don't understand what's going on inside my mind, in a moment I want to cry, becasue of a stupid song, that brings out the memories, I'm missing stupid things, every little word makes me cry, but I don't wanna die, as someone, who didn't live her life on a full, I wanna taste everything, try everything, but I'm stuck inside my brain, all my limits come from my fear, my pain, I'm scared of being hurted, misunderstood, cuse' I feel like I can be myself just with the few people, the only ones that I can call friends, and you know, during the days like this I really need someone, who's not gonna ask and just hug me, let me cry for as long time as I need, but they're away, it's not that easy, the only contact we have is just trough mobile phones, parents don't understand this, they think we're used to the Internet, the truth is, we just need people, who truly understand us.
          
          Part 1 bo watt nie pozwala całego na raz wstawić

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