shaniqua

I wish my body was some good so I can work on a job. I wish I could stand up on my feet for hours or more without my back hurting me. I don't like babysitting Monday through Friday. Don't get me wrong I love my nephews but I don't like babysitting anymore but have no choice. Lord I wish you would find me or help me get a job where I can sit down. I wish I can get a stock clerk job putting products on shelves.

Sometimes I wish my mom would come to me and talk about things like guys,sex and other things. The only thing she brings up is what to do and what not to do when she dies. Her and my sister talk about everything and anything. I have cousins and a sister but me and my sister we don't talk like sisters do and she have her own kids and everything and my female cousins they have their own families and jobs and everything so I can't talk to them about things. I pray to God that he would send me some friends I can talk to about anything and everything and do things with. I just want someone to talk to weather face to face, through text or FaceTime or call each other on the phone. That's the main thing I want.

Right now I wish I had some friends to talk to about anything and do things with like going to the homecoming game tonight. And I wish I had someone special to do things with too. Or me and my friends and our boyfriends go to the game as a group. Lord please let me day come where I get everything that is on this paper that is on my door.

I wish I had my own everything and my own responsibilities. I wish I had some friends to talk to, do things with,talk on the phone with,come and pick me up and go somewhere. 

Lord I need your help to get me out of this big lie that I told to this guy. I promise if you help me I will be honest with everyone for now on. I should have told him the truth that I don't want to talk to him anymore but I didn't and I don't know why. Please help me with this Lord. I blocked him and everything. And I know he is hurting by everything I said and I am truly sorry for everything. Please help me Lord.

A few minutes ago I text my old highschool teacher for some advice on should I stop seeing him and everything. My problem is when he calls me I live with my mom and he calls in the morning like at 3,4, and 5 am in the morning and right across the hall is my mom and if she finds out Iits over for me. My heart feels lighter and I feel so much better. I know I should have cut my ties with him sooner.

I think I made a mistake with this long distance relationship. When he call me I be in the bed at night and when I call him he be working. I think I'm going to end this. It would be different if we could call each other on the phone like a normal couple. It's my fault for talking to him in the first place.

Lord we haven't met in person but he face time me but I can't answer because my ma be here and everything and I can't answer him . I wish he would call in the afternoon instead of the morning. I got someone to talk to and everything.  I want to see his face and hear his voice but I never be alone when he FaceTime me or in the morning. Please let us face time each other when I am alone.

Lord today he told me he love me and I said it back but didn't mean it because we are still getting to know each other. I'm thinking about calling everything off with him and everything. Help me.

Lord in need your help with this guy Leroy. He has more experience than me with everything and I don't have that much experience. I'm thinking of not talking to him anymore and everything. Give me a sign or something. I wish I had someone to talk to about it.