Hey, y'all. I truly hope everyone is doing well and that everyone who celebrates had a wonderful Thanksgiving.
I lost someone extremely important to me on Monday, October 14th. Two days later, while I'm making calls and arrangements I get a call from an old childhood friend I haven't spoken to in years - she informs me without warning that Liam Payne has been found deceased. She had no other information to offer, no one did at the time, and still, now there are several unknowns and more questions than answers - but one thing we know for sure right now is that he has been laid to rest, and somehow the world is still spinning with his absence. I write this to say a few things: 1. Please know how loved you are. Please. I always check my messages, and will always offer a listening ear to anyone that needs it. 2. The world needs you. I need you. You need you. Sometimes the biggest support system you have is the one you offer yourself. Be kind to yourself. 3. A small fact about me that I kept hidden from even those closest to me is my struggle with sobriety. I went through a lot of things as a child that I wouldn't wish on anyone - and my first taste of adulthood welcomed any and all escape from that with substances and alcohol. I got clean April 1, 2021. Liam did an interview June of that year saying he was sober - without knowing, my idol and I had gotten clean together. When he relapsed later that year it broke my heart, but I still supported everything he did. Liam was my favorite, he is still my favorite. I will write again, I will always give him the happy ending he deserved, and I will forever continue to fight for justice to know what happened in that God Forsaken hotel.
I will be back, I promise. I love you all, I've seen your comments, and read your messages. Stay kind. ~Emma