dogfashiondisco
this is more corny and sentimental than anything, but i wonder if i knew at the age of 11 that things would get better. i still have some of the same issues - being too open about my sexuality (hashtag HYPERSEXUALITY!!!), not having the strength to speak up, so on and so forth, but i still have retained my passion for my ocs, for writing, and my favorite things (now instead of superjail and slendytubbies, it's a whole plethora of things - right now, a bunch of bands and hannibal). i still have retained my love for my friends, even if i have an entirely different friend group now.
for the past year, because of multiple ex friends, ive suffered multiple relapses, but now, i know how to heal from them. those relapses made me turn into a terrified, hypersexual 11-12 year old again. but ive learned how to cope, im surrounded by people who love me now, and i have a good support system. i hope my past self knows that. i hope she knows she'll be loved one day. i hope she knows she can heal.
i dont know where im going with this anymore but i just wanted to say this to my past self - you are loved, more loved than you know. it's okay to be scared. it's ok to be sad. im so sorry you were exposed to the things you were, im so sorry so many people here hurt you once you strayed away from the safe places you found. i love you. so many people love you.
and yeah this is my old account. what a time capsule for 2020, my ocs before i even CONCEIVED the spirit line, before i listened to the musician that changed and saved my life (lemon demon), before... everything, really. before hannibal, before death grips, before the human centipede, before horror, before the scary jokes, before lemon demon, there was superjail, slendytubbies, and tf2. and all of those things impacted my life in a way i cant quite describe. my god!
dogfashiondisco
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if you see this and you used to be friends with me, i once again no longer am scooter or wesley. im lucifer. and a *lot* of shit has changed yet again. im pretty much a completely different person now. like, damn! a lot of my old friends here are inactive now, and thats for the best - eventually, wattpad became yet another groomer central, and unfortunately a good majority of tweens fell victim to it - myself, obviously, included. damn.
i hope youve all healed over these past few years. ive had my ups and downs, but man, im better than i was before, thats for sure.
love you guys lots. wattpad just isnt the same anymore and probably never will be.
