One thing I learned from the past 3 years, is that it goes on, no matter how much it hurts, no matter how much you break, you heal, but it doesn't mean you won't have a scar.
From family drama, to toxic relationships, it all leaves a scar, and if that scar opens again, it's not going to be easy to heal back, but you can and you will.
It all hurts, for some people after a few relationship traumas, it physically hurts to think of a relationship, for others they keep fighting their fears, it's ok, it's ok to lean on a shoulder, it's ok to hold someones hand, it's ok to need support, because one day, that person will give you the best of yourself.