slipmus

GUYS PLEASE STOP READING MY ETELED STORY I WANT TO DELETE IT BUT IT HAS SO MANY READS SO NOW IM STUCK ‍♀️

slipmus

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//vent! tw: mentions of death, self harm//
          
          Why do I feel like this? He’s betrayed me.. I hate him. She left me for her. I hate her. I act nice around her. I stab her when I’m alone with myself. But.. the important reason I’m venting, is.. Fuck.. my mom’s dead, has been for a while. My dad’s homeless, how grand. I’m treated like shit from my grandma, but.. I don’t want people to be stressed.. So I keep these thoughts to myself. But no. Just no. I can’t anymore. I’ve been sexually harassed once, smacked for nothing, and my best friend has left me.. now I know this sounds pathetic as hell, but.. As my best friend, I’m talking about my mom. We loved each other. We cried together. We laughed. Shared. I miss that love. I miss my old, care-free life. What the FUCK did I do to deserve this?.. It’s all in my head.. I just need to get over it, right? Heh. Yeah. I wish. I have self harmed a couple times out of anger and sadness..but.. what ever happened to care-free living? Not a worry in the world. Now someone whines and I feel like it’s my fault. I’m a loser. I’m pathetic. I don’t deserve love, clearly. I’m just not wanted in this world. I’m hated. No one has told me they were proud of something I did ever since she died. It’s my fault. I’m the one to blame.

seele_top

@ slipmus  np :3
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slipmus

@seele_top omfg your so nice thank you sm :bamblove:
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seele_top

@ slipmus  I may be lqte and I just saw your account, but dont blame yourself. Im sorry for your loss. Its not your fault that she passed away. Everyone deserves love, and you do to. You dont need hold your emotions back. I cant say much at least bc Im not part of this, but remember that she loves you and believes in you. There is always someone who loves you and someone who can support you, even in the internet. Im sorry that i cant write much to maybe make you feel a little better, but again, there is always someone who will be at your side, always
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