hey uh,,,
i don’t know how to say this but i may not be around here much more/longer/often
i don’t know what’s happening.
it’s been a long, bumpy road
there were a lot of happy times but—
also a lot of not very happy ones.
i’m sorry if i ever hurt anyone.
i only ever wanted to make someone happy and proud of me.
someone. anyone. but-
i feel like my body is shutting down again
my daily headaches are back and worse
i’ve stopped eating again
i can’t get any more than 5 hours of sleep on the nights i get sleep (nightmares)
i relapsed and self harmed again
the voices are just really really loud guys.
i think i’ve lost myself.
again.
i don’t want anyone to be concerned.
even tho i i don’t really know many of you i love y’all.
stay strong for me champs.
feel free to message me whenever and give me updates on y’all s lives (i love that stuff!!)
i’ll be sure to respond as soon as i’m having a better day.
i don’t want to say ‘good day’ because i’m not sure if there will many good days for awhile.
but it’s okay because i’ll try to power through.
just getting a little sick of being strong (literally)
but with all sincerity i have in my heart
i love y’all and you mean everything to me.
i’m working on one of my books and hoping it will clear my clouded mind.
and i will still be here reading fanfics
but just a little bit of a break from socials
i hope you guys understand
