slysmiles

⠀⠀⠀╱⠀⠀⠀my  b,   chat.   older  by  alec  benjamin  has  me  in  my  feelings.
          	  
          	  'cause  wym,   "   guess my childhood is over   /  i'm taking down my posters and i'm putting my things in a box next to a toaster / that's my closest thing to closure   /   i can't stop this rollercoaster   /   i'm not ready to get older "   .ᐣ.ᐣ.ᐣ
          	  
          	  ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀his  songs  made  me  emotional  before,,,   but  pls,   being  able  to  see  his  twelve  notes  tour  live  really  changed  my  perception  and  reactions  ...   /pos

of  course,   i  think  they   'd   all  stay  in  contact  regularly,   frequent  visits  or  dinners  or  family  outings,   considering  they  are  all  they  had  for  so  many  years.⠀⠀⠀⠀but  the  thought  of  that  sort  of  bittersweet  and  melancholic  codependency  is  still  there,   sighs. 

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀which   /then/   leads  me  to  the  thought  that  rody  probably  has  the  same  thoughts  about  mayumi.   and  that...  eughhh.   ⠀⠀⠀rody   's   just  as  used  to  a  lively  household  between  the  four  of  them  just  as  much  as  they  are,   seeing  the  younger  two  grow  up...   as  well  as  seeing  his  little  troublemaker  grow  up  too   .ᐣ   especially  when  they  used  to  literally  be  attached  to  his  hip  and  follow  him  like  a  shadow  when  they  were  a  kid   .ᐣ.ᐣ 
          	  ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀i  think  it   's   so  bittersweet  between  all  of  them,   because  how  do  you  leave  the  only  people  youve  been  able  to  call  home   .ᐣ   how  do  you  deal  with  witnessing  it,   witnessing  your  younger  sibling(s)   not  need  you  as  much  as  they  did   .ᐣ   he  did  his  job  as  an  older  brother...   which  just  leaves  more  of  his  own  guilt.