miss_maybank

I say what I said last post but now my ex is trying to reach out again (for like the 8th time)

hey loves!
          ik I’ve been on a roll with uploading (woohoo go me) but honestly within the past 24 hours I’ve had such a slump mentally and emotionally.
          I’ll spare everyone the vent but feburary is a really hard month for me and navigating it has been really difficult. 
          It’s the time me and my boyfriend (now ex) broke up last year and the reasons for the breakup have honestly left a hole in my heart and I’ve never been the same since. 
          I’ve been crying about it all again, which I haven’t for about 2 months and it’s just leaving me feeling really depleted, down about myself and lacking motivation to even do homework, let alone write my books. 
          
           I thought going back to school and seeing him would be fine and easy, but I was wrong and that’s okay. 
          Just don’t expect too many updates from me, if I can, I will.
          I’m sorry guys. Just got to put myself and my broken heart first for a little and try to find peace in it all.
          I love u guys, thank you for the endless support <3

was on my healing journey after my breakup in Feb 2024 but now I’m in feburary again I’m dreading that day, valentines and everything else that reminds me of him.

I spent all day writing up episode 2 of obx for my book and I’ve got a few chapters written now! Updates are going to be (for this week) Wednesday and Friday! I start Year 12 tomorrow but am going to try fit in my writing the best I can <3

spending my last day of summer holidays working on my books and prewriting chapters helppp

for anyone reading dangerous desire, i have updated the chapter 'unsettling reminders'. it wasn't at my usual standard before and its longer now, and ive added more depth. im finally happy with the standard of it so have reuploaded. if. you read the book, it's worth a reread i think <3 
          also i am preplanning chapters to upload for when school starts and i get too busy! love you guys sm xx

Omg thank you for 200 reads on Dangerous Desire! This is the only the beginning of that book so thank you thank you thank you! :) 
          
          Long message ahead lol: 
          Also, I am currently in the process of joining a gym so my updates will be 
          scattered but will try to remain consistent! I’m hoping to update both my books once/twice a fortnight, as I work on Saturdays, and will be going to the gym on Monday nights,Thursday afternoons and Saturday or Sunday depending on my schedule. Not to mention, I am learning to drive and have booked in lessons and evenings where I need to accumulate my hours to get my Provisional license. On top of all this, I’m trying to still have a life, see my friends, go to parties and have some fun! 
          
          Also please consider that I am still a school student, and a high achiever in all my classes. School is my priority for my final year, everything else does come later. And I need to keep high grades so if writing, the gym or anything else starts to majorly interfere, I’ll reassess my schedule accordingly. This may mean just slower updates on my end, especially during exam weeks! Hopefully though I’ll try and have some rewritten chapters! 
          
          Sorry for the long message, I just wanted to get all of this out there for anyone who keeps up with my stories as I promise I’m not abandoning my books I’m just getting busy! I love you guys!

I got my timetable for this school year and like what the heck. Why aren’t my studies ever fifth period?! I’m forced at school all day everyday now but Thursdays….this is sad. And double maths first day back….kms

hey y’all! I’m hoping so so bad to upload another chapter super soon of my books! i have my knee rehabilitation appointment tmr and by the end of it I’m usually in a lot of pain/discomfort so if I don’t get it done by tomorrow it’ll be in the next couple of days! love u guysssss xx

the closer I get to seeing my ex back at school again the more genuinely scared I am bc he will not leave me alone