Guys, sometimes I go through and read my books so I can see what I need to fix and so on, but, I can’t read the Texas chapter in In The Shadows. Every time I start to feel sick to my stomach for how poorly I executed Emilio. He raped his son and then Rachel and Mia were like “that’s cool.” When it is not in fact cool, I’m so sorry for every putting that down and for keeping it up. I’m gonna take down that chapter and rewrite it. I can’t believe I ever thought that was okay, as someone who’s been SA’d it hurts when people you care about hang out with your assaulter like it’s no big deal. I can’t even be friends with the people who assaulted other people. I lost one of my best friends because he decided to do assault his girlfriend. I can’t ever look at him the same and whenever I do see him I’m filled with so much anger. Anger at him, anger at myself for being his friend. So for me to just throw that chapter out like is was nothing is grossly negligent on my behalf.
I’m sorry to all the people I might have offended, and I’m sorry to all of you for letting you down.