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ok so did i just ghost yall for like a month? yes. have i updated in 6 months? no. will i update soon? hopefully. anyways, love life rant: so there's this girl at my school and she's always just kinda been there and we've just been aquaintences or whatever. this year we were on the same bball team so we got pretty close (and also i would like to mention that she has a bf but they like never talk to each other which is really weird but you do you ig?) anyways, we got pretty close and all my friends were like "dude i think she likes you" and id always be like "no dude she has a bf" and about two weeks ago i realized that i caught feelings for her. also, we both bully our friends as a sign of love or whatever and so yk, we bully each other. but all my friends are like "dude she's flirting with you" and i kept denying it but in the back of my mind i wanted to believe it. and now i almost fully believe that she likes me bc it was our last regular season game in bball before the playoffs so technically it was our last guaranteed game and all of us were being sappy an shit and this girl has never shown me any sort of physical affection but she comes up to me gives me a big hug and goes "im gonna miss you" and that folks, almost made me cry. and ok, this was one of our few games that was recorded bc we were at this bougie ass school so i went back to the recording and this girl was just standing there talking to some of her friends and she saw that i was kind of alone, she turns her back to me and then changes her mind, does a full 180, comes up to me and gives me a hug. also i would just like to say that she did not in fact give anyone else a hug that game. not even the girls she was close with. so anyways, i like this girl and im pretty sure she likes me back but she has a bf (?) so it's kinda rough. lol.

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im currently saving the last episode of dickinson for tomorrow bc i don't think i can handle it tn

guys. i just binged dickinson and ive watched the first two seasons in two days. tomorrows gonna be rough bc im planning on finishing season 3

i just cried over the dickinson trailer bc that was the beginning and we've reached the end. i haven't even seen dickinson but i've seen enough clips to know what happened and now im crying over a show i've never seen. great.

bro i needa like stop giving strangers on the internet my life story. like i be telling yall everything. i probably needa stop so someone doesn't find me and like kill me or something idfk man

are you kidding me. *rant warning btw* so im just gonna call this girl that likes me that's literally in 6th grade emily bc why not. ok so emily went live on insta and so i joined as a joke right? (btw this whole time i had a facetime going with my friends) and then she saw that i joined and immediately ended it and then a few minutes later she made a new one and i joined again bc i wanted to lowkey make fun of her so i joined again. long story short she just kept talking ab how she liked me and it was really weird and like 5 minutes into her live fucking ruby joined and emily was talking ab how hot i was. that's literally so embarassing. so i posted on my private story like "this whole situation is weird, stupid, awkward and i just want emily to stop bc its annoying" and then this girl that i forgot i accidentally added to my story shows emily ON LIVE my story where im basically saying that emily is annoying and like an hour ago she dmed me and im too scared to open it but the little preview thing said "and im not just 'a stupid 6th grader...'" like bitch you are tho

BITCH. this 6th grader that's been sending me these notes dmed me and said "yeah i like you" and then i was like "oh sorry i have a gf" and i posted it on my private story bc i forgot that i only told a couple people that i asked camilla to be my fake gf and literally almost everyone that saw my story swiped up and was like "WTF YOU HAVE A GF" like bitch even my cousin was like WAIT WHAT and then i had to tell her that i had a fake gf and she goes "thank god. you're still a baby" like dude im only like 2 years younger than you. DUDE i forgot ab this but this girl that i literally haven't talked to in like a year but we're still kinda close goes "wait you have a gf?!?!" and then i had to explain to her the whole thing. there's literally like 20 ish people on my private story and only like 2 of them didn't swipe up so my phone was blowing up sm

ok so little life update for the past like 2 months that i've been gone (if you don't care just don't read it) so in 26 days (yes i may or may not have a countdown going) softball practices will start up again and that's really exciting bc i love the team sm. also lowkey lost feelings for ruby but that's fine bc 1. she has a bf  and 2. it's kinda run its course bc i liked her for ab a year. also the girl on my softball team that i have (had) a crush on (camilla) is weird bc one day ill be obsessing over her and the next i'll lose feelings, but anyway, even rn when we're just kinda living our own lives she still snaps me and gives me life updates and stuff which is kinda cute. also today i found a note in my locker that said "i like you (im a girl)" which was kinda sweet bc i figured it was from a 6th grader but it was mostly weird and it reminded me of a tiktok i saw the other day and it was like "if ur grades don't touch, neither should you" and i thought that was kinda funny