my ex-bestfriend tried to kill herself yesterday.
I just want to quickly point out that mental health is not something that should be taken as a joke and that if you’re someone who suffers with depression, suicidal thoughts ect that no matter who it is, en ex friend, an ex, someone you really trust or even your parents that you shouldn’t be afraid to talk to whoever you need to. You’re never going to be judged for speaking from the heart, so don’t bottle it up inside until you can’t take t anymore.
I almost lost someone important to me today. And even though we’ve stopped talking, that doesn’t mean that i’e stopped or ever will stop caring for that person.
I also want to point out that whatever position you’re in, you’re not or never will be to blame. Ever.
I’ve spent most of the day reflecting and thinking back to how i could’ve prevented the incident, but everytime i try i always come back to solution one; that i’m the one to blame.
But how could i have known? it’s been seven months since i last spoke to them, so hw could i have known on that exact day at that exact time in that exact specific moment in time that the person i care about the most would get hospitalised?
The last thing I’d like to say is that if your battling with mental health that it’s okay to feel down it’s okay to cry and it’s okay to talk to someone even if it’s somebody you don’t know, talk to someone and get it out.
i hope to visit them tomorrow, i don’t know i i can today, i don’t know if i can stomach it. But if not today then tomorrow.
-smœle
