[Rant sorry] I'm learning about autism rn, for a paper I'm writing and I keep catching myself saying "that's why I do this?". For example stimming, when I was younger I kept doing a neck stim and was told to knock it off and now I'm doing it again whenever I'm stressed and get weird looks and when asked why I do that I couldn't respond because I hadn't known entirely why. Now I know and I don't know whether to be happy or upset as I'm doing alot more cause I'm stressed and don't know what to do.