riya

在假期去中国，等不及!! ((:

You said that the idol life wasn't for you, but it helped you to meet the most important people in your life that miss you more than anyone in the entire world. I'm sorry, I'm sorry for being upset over you but how can my heart heal this large hole without a source of happiness? Is there really one? Or do i just wait until the day we meet again, coz i look forward to that more than anything in the universe. Rest in peace darling. You did so well. 
          You worked so hard and you deserve having a break. 
          Just remember that you'll never be forgotten, no matter how many days, months and years go by because I'll always remember you, even if it causes the tears to run down my cheeks once again. 
          I just can't believe you're gone, it shocks me to my very core and i hate it. 
          I hate knowing that you're not here anymore, the convincing isn't working. I can't trick my heart to love when someone so important is missing. 
          RIP jjong
          I'll never forget you ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

18/12/2018
          
          Dear Jjong,
          
          A year, how has it been so long already? I miss you and that fact will never change. How can i stop missing someone i love? I'm sorry, I'm so sorry that you had to end your life with misery, I'm sorry no one saw this sooner, I'm sorry fro not realising that your smiles were fake. I loved you and i feel so guilty for knowing that you were hurting when the smiles on the faces of people you cared for where true. I miss your voice, your smile, those kind eyes i could stare into for hours. I miss it all and there's nothing i want more than your happiness. I wish, i wish that i could go back and change everything. That i could save you and take on any challenge that faces me coz i care for you so much that it hurts. I smiled to ease the pain but what can i do if it stays and does not fade? 
          I'm never gonna get over you and i know it, I've come to terms with it and it scares me just a little. You were taken for granted and im so so sorry. I love you Jonghyunnie, i love you so much and theres not a second that goes by when i don't think of you. 

HAPPY HALLOWEEN 

It's been 10 months since Jjong passed
          How has it been so long already?
          I just miss him so much that i don't even know what to do anymore
          It felt like it was just yesterday when the news spread,
          But it wasn't
          And it's been so long
          But no pain has faded.
          I still cry when i see him
          He had such a future planned for him
          He was loved by more people than he could ever imagine.
          And millions of them, like me,
          Didn't even get to see him once...
          

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHANG YIXING
          The most cutest, most adorably beautiful unicorn in the entire world and i love you sooooooo much♥ 
          Saranghae my little handsome ball of joy♥
          Have a great day, little dancing king♥ :D

Hkshkshks there's nothing i love more than...
          Minhoscharisma
          Taeminscherries
          Onewssmile
          Keysattitude
          And Jjongsbeautifuleyes

SAY SHINEE

SAY KE-e-eY

SAY JONGHYUNN