smoshyphantrash

i NEED to talk to you. i am going CRAZY with you ignoring me. it LITERALLY hurts. i am not being dramatic when i say it hurts. PLEASE hear me out.

i know you think i’m a burden, and worthless and don’t deserve to be alive, or loved, or happy. but i want YOU to be alive, and loved, and happy. and i think that’s all that matters.

jaena, pookie. where did you go?? i miss you yelling at me in my dms 😔 come back pookie 😔

last time we emailed you said you don’t hate me. why don’t you hate me? i think i deserve to be hated. you told me so many times in the past that you hated me. why is it different now? why do you suddenly not hate me?

please read my email from today, it was sent from my cececupycake email. it’s titled “i’m sorry.” you don’t have to reply, but i do ask that you at least read it. 
          
          i think there’s some things in it that you’ve needed to hear from me these past few years. 
          
          please, just read it, don’t reply if you’re not comfortable, just read the email. 

i still love you. i think i always will. 

before we go our separate ways, once and for all: 
          
          please read the latest email i sent. i sent it literally five minutes ago, and its titled “i’m sorry” 
          
          it’s long, it might take a few minutes to read,
          
          but if i have to continue living without you
          
          i need you to see what i wrote. 
          
          xoxo. 

I WILL SHOUT IT TO THE ROOFTOPS THAT I STILL LOVE YOU

i still love you. 

3 days. 
          
          You have 3 days. 
          
          Good luck.