snapeee2424

adakah hal yg lebih menyenangkan

and right know i miss God, its been so long since i do prayey that actually so focused

i think it happen slowly 

i didn't when i start to be so far from god.... 

kalau gue take the attempt reaksi mereka gimna yaaaa, mereka bakal nyangka ga ya. Kayanya ga deh hahahahah
          diva kayanya bakal denger kabarnya setelah sebulan, hmm kalau temen temen pl kayanya pasang story nyeritain something, kalau temen temen ovulasi kayanya kaget bgt, dosen gimana ya reaksinya sir jimmy dan semuanya. Pasti mereka menyayangkan kejadian ini sih, mungkin mempertanyakan kenapa gue melakukan itu. Yang paling devastating ofc my parents, umi pasti berusaha ikhlas dannn (uhhh aku ga bisa bayangin sesakit apa umi kalau aku lakuin itu) 
          terus kalau menurut agamaku aku ga akan dimaafin Tuhan kalau lakuin ini. Pasti umi mikirn ini sihhhh dan akan kirim doa banyak banyak untuk aku

since no one knew me irl here so im just gonna throw everything in here ☺ yeayyy!!!!! 

i know for the past 2 years i distance my self from everyone including my own family and close friend bcs of my horrible mental health problem (i have BPD) and are take some pills along with ketamine therapy. Maybe that's why rn they're also not seeing me

i miss genuine friendship so much, the feelings of connection that actually can help human race. 

Haii
          Terima kasih yaa sudah mendukung dan menyinggahi karya-karyaku!! Sehat selalu untuk kamu di sanaa <3
          
          Salam hangat,
          - Ris

Hai, fllbck ya.