Linkin Park is not my favorite band, and their music is not my kind, but still Chester's death is something that shook me so hard... Depression is no joke. I would've committed suicide if I hadn't thought of things I would've left behind. All those things I'd been through, without words, without physical pains, but mental pains, left such fatal scars in my heart and mind. I wasn't selfish not having committed suicide, I was just too coward to do so. Now, I'm not stronger than before. I'm just a girl with an empty, broken heart and mind.