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So so sorry you had to read My Sadistic Older brother-- I was around 14 when I wrote it and was fairly new into the BL community that my mind went batshiz off my rockets. 
I'll definitely be rewriting it: 

For clarification purposes- 

1) I did my research on mental illnesses back then and while some comments are more accurate, what Jackie had was a more severe state of a little something I have. I'd self debate and talk to myself every now and then, it's like talking to several me's that agree and disagree to a particular topic, but with different reasons. It's not a room per-se, but it helps with the imagery process. 

2) All characters are based off real life people, James and Jackie included. They're my friends from back at school (yes, they're siblings), and Jackie really did abuse James, just not as badly as how I had written back then. Jackie was my high-school classmate, and James was my brother's friend. I did eventually talk Jackie into not beating James, so there's that-- There's absolutely NO pedophilia or incest between them, never have been and never was. I'm blaming it on my 14 y/o oddly deranged mentality who somehow thinks it's okay after several yaoi fanfictions. Now that I'm older, this is definitely not okay. 

3) There was a person who commented on the education systems, and yepp- here in my country, there's: primary school, highschool (I know there's middle school, but we merged them together somewhat), and college. 

I'll definitely be rewriting it, and hopefully my writing skills haven't faltered. Please bear with me, I'll attempt to get more stories up while juggling with online classes.