Sowmya Addepalli

Being born as a girl is a sin commited in this life or previous life i don't know 

I regret being a girl
          Getting married changing myself according to their needs
          Leaving aside all my desires
          Its better if i dont exist
          When i have no value
          What is the use
          Of course im hard headed woman
          Im bad
          Im hateful person
          But this is my fucking wish
          I do as wish
          I have every right to
          Maybe i made wrong decisions
          Im giving love
          Im trying to learn
          Im being polite
          Im nkt stating what i feel because they will feel bad
          But u stupid person u urself told me not to talk back to them
          Now u r saying u talk back u made the decision suffer
          U r throwing me into shit n happily watching like an entertainment channel
          I fucking hate my self for giving all these powers to u over me
          So what if u r a husband i should keep quiet and not talk 
          Why 
          One day i will leave for good
          Then u will regret making me suffer
          I fucking hate myself for loving u
          

Im scared to go to their house

There is no place for innocence and truth in this world
          A woman still needs to fight to express her feelings n opinion 
          Even if others take us as bad woman are framed as culprit 
          Shameless world
          Doesn't change
          Thats why destruction is happening 
          I really wanted to leave this world
          Why should do according to someone else expectations
          Bloody hell
          Let others rot in hell
          I fucking hate u ppl
          We shouldn't give importance to others

Not all dreams become real
          Reality check
          My opinion doesn't matter at all....? 
          

My heart is aching 
          Why cant he understand

He is so casually saying i dont make a good family
          That im not a good family person
          He should at least understand me right
          I feel bad yes
          But let him think whatever he wants
          Thats y we shouldn't show our weaknesses to others

Your smile your love your care 

Thank you so much my dear aaru 

Peace of mind