@soki_kun Hi soki! I know exactly what you feel, I am also Genderfluid but bi, so i know your struggle. What I recommend is that if you have a friends house where you can put the address for a binder buy it, it makes some days so much better, and if you can cut your hair or smt, tie some parts up, it’ll be ok as long as you feel comfortable. I know what you are going thru and it’s hard but there’s always someone at your corner if you need them. Hope everything solves itself, much love, a stranger!