So I just listened to the persona album for the first time in what feels like forever. I think this is the feeling that you get when you miss something that you were never a part of. When you miss people you've never met, experiences you've never had. This feeling of Deja Vu and nostalgia overcomes you clashing your real memories with the thoughts of a false reality. I miss the Love Yourself era. I miss MOTS: Persona BTS. I miss the happy feeling I got while listening to that at the bus stop in the winter cold, and the blue-hue the morning sun-rise cast as I messed around doing nothing. Sitting on that bone-chilling excuse for a bench to rest my shivering muscles. Hugging myself to keep warm, and all to the comfort of those songs. I miss something I never knew. What do I do to feel these again? It's summer and the heat is deadly. The now red-hue that lies across the town only makes you feel worse. You want to wear less than is allowed to compensate for the sweat you produce with a single layer of clothing on. You can't go out there. Even in the early mornings, the humidity feels stronger than before, but the rain is rare. You wait for a cool breeze, but it never comes. I will have to bare this feeling of missing my past while I await the cold months of winter and for school to start again. I hope we have it in person and that they allow public transport, although I still feel that even more change is to come. ;-;