@percabeth_pjo oof! well I lost a friend last year, and I'd known them for at least 12 years. It sucked a first, but then I tried to find new things I enjoyed and let myself continue my life without them. Sometimes it can take months, maybe even years, but it always ends up ok. Plus it gives you thicker skin, and you can prepare yourself for other things that may happen. If you need someone to talk to, I'm always here <3