somebodyspersephone

hi i'm here to announce that i've had my second breakdown in a week tonight because it feels like my friends all hate me :))))) please respond to this or something i'm moderately desperate to vent and also am very sad and also really want advice. anybody know how to cope with feeling like you're completely expendable in a chat or group that means like everything to you? please help with that. if you can. i don't think anybody's going to see this but it's the biggest platform i have that i can mostly guarantee my friends won't see and like i know i should talk about this to them but that actually has consequences and there's a difference between saying "haha the only good thing about me is my boobs not debatable" and "wow i left this chat as a joke but it's been several hours and after you guys ignore my rants about danganronpa because they're late at night and really long and not noticing after all this time that i'm gone even though i'm responding to messages outside of the chat is killing me because this thing is so important to be but it doesn't feel like anybody actually likes me and they just tolerate me for reasons i don't know about because i can't really find all too much good in my personality for them to actually want to hang around and i don't know why people want me here but i'm not sure that they actually do or they just know i don't have anywhere else to go and very few other people to spend time with so they just put up with me even if i make mistakes that i don't understand how they can forgive because i know they're probably not that big but they feel enormous and unforgivable and it feels like everyone should hate me even though they don't and i need this chat to stay sane but i can't help feeling like you all would probably be happier without me in it" yeah anyway please do respond to this i made it an announcement for a reason. i think my mom is right when she says i need to just stop worrying about calls and have a talk with my therapist but :))

cherryblossom480

Heyy I feel really bad for not seeing this sooner! Imo you’re definitely not somebody who’s expendable or replaceable. You’re an amazing and unique person! Despite not talking in a while and having somewhat drifted apart, I still consider you a good friend. Also hey text me about anime anytime, I happen to be nocturnal as well. If you ever need to talk or rant, just reach out to me (but maybe not through wattpad, unless you want, I just prob won’t see things as quickly) and I’ll try to respond as best as I can with my limited social skills. I’m sorry for not reaching out to you sooner or not putting that much effort in to maintain our friendship. Uh... I hope I’m not one of the friends you’re referring to, probably not (?). It’s been over a month so hopefully you’ve resolved most of these issues, though it’s understandable if you haven’t. Nevertheless, I definitely do not hate you; you’re not alone
• Reply

somebodyspersephone

hi i'm here to announce that i've had my second breakdown in a week tonight because it feels like my friends all hate me :))))) please respond to this or something i'm moderately desperate to vent and also am very sad and also really want advice. anybody know how to cope with feeling like you're completely expendable in a chat or group that means like everything to you? please help with that. if you can. i don't think anybody's going to see this but it's the biggest platform i have that i can mostly guarantee my friends won't see and like i know i should talk about this to them but that actually has consequences and there's a difference between saying "haha the only good thing about me is my boobs not debatable" and "wow i left this chat as a joke but it's been several hours and after you guys ignore my rants about danganronpa because they're late at night and really long and not noticing after all this time that i'm gone even though i'm responding to messages outside of the chat is killing me because this thing is so important to be but it doesn't feel like anybody actually likes me and they just tolerate me for reasons i don't know about because i can't really find all too much good in my personality for them to actually want to hang around and i don't know why people want me here but i'm not sure that they actually do or they just know i don't have anywhere else to go and very few other people to spend time with so they just put up with me even if i make mistakes that i don't understand how they can forgive because i know they're probably not that big but they feel enormous and unforgivable and it feels like everyone should hate me even though they don't and i need this chat to stay sane but i can't help feeling like you all would probably be happier without me in it" yeah anyway please do respond to this i made it an announcement for a reason. i think my mom is right when she says i need to just stop worrying about calls and have a talk with my therapist but :))

cherryblossom480

Heyy I feel really bad for not seeing this sooner! Imo you’re definitely not somebody who’s expendable or replaceable. You’re an amazing and unique person! Despite not talking in a while and having somewhat drifted apart, I still consider you a good friend. Also hey text me about anime anytime, I happen to be nocturnal as well. If you ever need to talk or rant, just reach out to me (but maybe not through wattpad, unless you want, I just prob won’t see things as quickly) and I’ll try to respond as best as I can with my limited social skills. I’m sorry for not reaching out to you sooner or not putting that much effort in to maintain our friendship. Uh... I hope I’m not one of the friends you’re referring to, probably not (?). It’s been over a month so hopefully you’ve resolved most of these issues, though it’s understandable if you haven’t. Nevertheless, I definitely do not hate you; you’re not alone
• Reply

somebodyspersephone

does anyone here ever send someone a message in the middle of the night kinda just because you know they won’t be up and through something the second you press send their f**king instagram active thing turns on and you’re left panicking because you wanted to have time to cope with the fact that you have emotions that you need to deal with and you need to process that you shared them so you just panic a ton because you need time and knowing the person they’re probably not active but that doesn’t mean it’s not absolutely terrifying and so you just kinda cry because you have no idea how else to cope with the stuff you were actually writing about and the panic and everything and you want to stop crying because it’s like the fourth time today and you know it’s kinda ridiculous but also you have no control over your emotions and how you feel on a regular basis and just thank god that you’re going to therapy soon because hah i’m venting

InkpenA113

I need therapy too, my dude 
            It feels like you’re falling apart and you can’t pull yourself back together but that’s alright. Take some time to yourself, watch your favorite movie, listen to your favorite songs, or just take a nap for a while. 
            Hold on just a lil while longer, you got this
• Reply

somebodyspersephone

anyway feel free to actually respond to this because i need human validation and i’m an absolute disaster so please
• Reply

somebodyspersephone

First of all the new logo sucks. Second of all, the worst kind of culture shock is sitting with The Gays™ when before you had been sitting with a mix of nerds and nice girls.

somebodyspersephone

@DogsRule200 mine became the straight allies group. Like we’re /were pretty closely tied with The Gays but now my lunch table is the Gays instead of the allies I guess and it’s weird because there was nowhere near as many death and drug jokes as well as things that make me go super fricking mom mode
• Reply

DogsRule200

@RoseLily3313 My group of nerds and nice girls became the Gays lmao
• Reply

somebodyspersephone

I thought I was much more violent than I was when I made this profile, like now I’m all “knives are super cool and I’m gonna threaten to stab you with whatever I have on hand if you’re pissing me off” but we’re watching wrestling in class and I’m just cringing and hoping to get out of here like god this is so stupid.

Roxy_SheWolf

@RoseLily3313 same
• Reply

somebodyspersephone

It’s a huge dick move but sometimes I just really want to just not tell people crucial information about me and just wait and see how long it takes for them to find out. Like just wait and see how long it takes for them to notice that I’m sad af and wonder “oh wow she’s really upset what’s wrong” but the problem is I know that the people who I would do it to just don’t care enough about me to even notice.