sonderdesolate

I removed all my books because I’m starting new stuff. WuPs

sonderdesolate

ɪ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇᴅ ᴍʏ ɴᴀᴍᴇ!! ᴡᴇᴇᴡᴏᴏ ɴᴀᴍᴇ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ!
          ᴡᴇɴᴛ ғʀᴏᴍ _ʀᴀɪɴʙᴏᴡᴄᴀᴛʟᴀᴅʏ_ ᴛᴏ sᴏɴᴅᴇʀᴅᴇsᴏʟᴀᴛᴇ.  ɪ sᴏʀᴛ ᴏғ ᴏᴜᴛ ɢʀᴇᴡ ᴛʜᴇ ɴᴀᴍᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ’ᴠᴇ ʜᴀᴅ ᴏɴ ʜᴇʀᴇ ғᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴀsᴛ ғᴏᴜʀ ʏᴇᴀʀs. ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴀᴛ, ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ sᴛᴀʀᴛ ᴀ ɴᴇᴡ, ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀᴋ ᴀɴᴅ ᴍʏ ʟɪғᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴀs ᴀᴘᴀʀᴛ ᴏғ ɪᴛ:)   
          
          sᴏɴᴅᴇʀ- ᴛʜᴇ ʀᴇᴀʟɪᴢᴀᴛɪᴏɴ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴇᴀᴄʜ ʀᴀɴᴅᴏᴍ ᴘᴀssᴇʀʙʏ ɪs ʟɪᴠɪɴɢ ᴀ ʟɪғᴇ ᴀs ᴠɪᴠɪᴅ ᴀɴᴅ ᴄᴏᴍᴘʟᴇx ᴀs ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴏᴡɴ.  
          ᴅᴇsᴏʟᴀᴛᴇ- ᴅᴇsᴇʀᴛᴇᴅ ᴏғ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ɪɴ ᴀ sᴛᴀᴛᴇ ᴏғ ʙʟᴇᴀᴋ ᴀɴᴅ ᴅɪsᴍᴀʟ ᴇᴍᴘᴛɪɴᴇss.

sonderdesolate

To the few people who do follow me and my stuff, I apologize.
          I’ve been going through some things that have changed me entirely. I can’t say I’ll update anytime soon and I can’t say everything’s alright either.
          As of now I removed all social media, blocked all my friends phone numbers, and overall isolated myself to absolute oblivion. 
          Nobody really needs to witness what I’ve been doing or who’ve I’ve become. It’s a guilt that only I need to carry. 
          Along with that the more time progresses the more I’ve changed and I want the least amount of people possible to witness it.
          My stories, the ones I’ve made within this past year and a half not the ones before, have always subtly shined a light on my life through other characters and it’ll do it more often as of now. So this is a trigger warning for my entire account as well. It’s a trigger warning for me as a person. I’m sorry to everyone I’ve possibly disappointed for who’ve I’ve become. I hate me too.

sonderdesolate

Thank you and I am a light switch really. It’s like when the lights are on I’m sweet, the most nice and kind person who only wants happiness. And that same person wants the best for others as well. When the lights are off it becomes the opposite. I go out of my way to make people miserable sometimes and I’m apathetic, I feel nothing for anyone except myself. Idk it’s complicated. Yeah I know I’m not alone in the world but I am alone in my real life. It’s quite a complicated situation and something I shouldn’t explain. But thank you
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qeawii

@_RainbowCatLady_  Ok make soon sooner! I want cha to be happi! As you said you're going on and off about stuff.. you're like a light switch  Actually, that screaming and arguing part is typically me. I argue with my brother and all that stuff. In the end, I'm being blamed. You're not the only one having a hard time in life. There are other people who are having difficulties too. Just know that you're not alone. There are lots of caring people around you :) You're one of them.   Just.. hang in there, yea?
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sonderdesolate

@GalaxyNek0 Life for me isn’t easy, but I’m gonna change it somehow, or continue to try. I am grateful for those who’ve stuck around because I am a stick in the mud haha. I’m on and off between happy thoughts and not. But I’ll cheer up:)) Sometimes I’m okay and other times I’m not, it’s a whirlwind. In this moment I’m happy and in relief but a three hours earlier I was yelling, screaming and arguing. But I’m okay really. I just need to not post about my feelings because it turns into a hurricane. Don’t worry though I’m going to be okay eventually, hopefully sometime soon. :))
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RoseTheDraconic666

OMFG YOUZ FABULOUS!!!!!!

sonderdesolate

@Toxic_Fire_Wolf Thanks :D And I haven't talked to you before so how would you know xD
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RoseTheDraconic666

Because your profile picture and you're nice. :3 ITS A RAINBOW KITTEH!
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sonderdesolate

@Toxic_Fire_Wolf Thanks but why xD
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