akina

Are u alive
          

Hiiiii
          It's been so long, hope ur doing good?
          

hai gais 
          
          what if i write 2 books at once  altho i think… yall will be taken aback by the one i have planned cuz its totally different from guitar rizz 

IM SORRY WHAT 

Hii 
          I put your Story in my TOP 3 bio, is that okay? :)

hey guys!
          
          i just came back to say my updates are gonna be super slow. i just got back my mid year results and my mom is ELATED. 
          
          no she’s not, she’s furious, if you couldn’t tell. so as punishment i got called some certain colourful words that i will not mention, and my plate is now overflowing with schoolwork and even more chores.
          
          i guess you could say i was really hurt by what she said. she’s been saying it to me since i was like 9 and i really thought i gained immunity cuz i stopped crying over it when i was 11 but i broke down today. 
          
          it’s literally so unfair how she couldn’t see from my pov. i was stressed, i had so much going on, from the increased pace of school since im in a pre-university course, how im literally captain of my swimming team so i need to be a good leader, i’m also the vice-chairperson of my class so im really jampacked with so much things. 
          
          the mere sight of a B on my report card had her grumbling on and on about how im lazy, how i’m “full of shit” (her own words). it felt like a slap to my face, because i studied hard, and i knew that because I WAS THE ONE behind the desk, scribbling and furiously memorising. 
          
          point is, i’m genuinely hurt. i dunno am i just too sensitive or something? i thought i was immune to her colourful words since i’ve been hearing them since i was young but i guess i’m not 
          
          

heyy i just posted my new story! so i’ll be updating more on that story, but whenever i have ideas or something new for guitar rizz, i’ll update it 
          
          i hope yall enjoy the new story as much you enjoyed guitar rizz 

heyy guys 
          
          sorry for the inactivity but i have a question! 
          
          should i discontinue guitar rizz? as much as i like the humour and vibe of it all, i’ve been having writer’s block for so long now and i can’t think of how to continue. but when i mean discontinue, i’ll just pause, and whenever i have an idea, i’ll update it. 
          
          if i discontinue, i’ll start a new book (which is kinda way more exciting in my opinion) so it covers up the loss of guitar rizz. 
          
          what do yall think? is that okay? 
          
          just drop your honest opinions in the replies 

skz comeback AND HOLY SHIT IM SMELLING ALBUM OF THE YEAR??? 
          
          im going to boom digi digi bom bom my day away man. 

how the FUCK do i pass math like i do pass, but BARELY i think im about to pass out. school is so stressful for me, and on top of juggling schoolwork, training and volunteer work, there’s my mom’s expectations and peer expectations. 
          
          when we talk about expectations, it always parents or teachers, but rarely do we mention about peer expectations. in my opinion, it’s where they perceieve a certain perspective towards you, and they EXPECT you to fulfill this expectation that they have formulated revolving around you. 
          
          and i hate that. 
          
          i’ve always been regarded as one of the hardworking students in my class and one of the top scorers, but one time i got a B for a subject, my classmates immediately started talking about it. (this is not a flex, btw pls dont take it like that)
          
          the whispers haunt me, their gazes trail after me. stop. it’s making me go crazy and at some point, i might just snap 
          
          anyway yea that was a little rant cuz my mid years are coming + i havent been getting enough sleep imagine sleeping at 1am and waking up at 4:40am, school till 6:15pm and then reach home by 8pm, chores, and then homework and study. 
          
          my eye bags are heavier than my whole body weight atp