Lola

So may things I wanted to do at the same time. I could be an accountant climbing the corporate ladder, the femme fatale who doesn't work at all but has men work for her, the lonely writer who either makes it or doesn't make it at all, or the artist who draws stories she wants to tell. I could own a bookstore or perhaps a pottery one. Or I could be a housewife, my brain working only for my children and husband and what meal I should cook next. Or the scientist who dedicates her life to finding cures for diseases. The coder whose only love are numbers and formulas on the screen. Or I could be the adventurer who's nowhere and everywhere at the same time, so fickle, more so than loyalty and love- present now, gone tomorrow. So may things I could be and so many things I want to do- only to end up doing nothing at all.

I only love you when the lights are out. I only love you when the lights are out, and you can't see my face. And our fingers can't reach possibly find me in the dark. Here, no one sees us. No one knows us. I can so easily disappear like the darkness you allow me to indulge in. And you? You still remain there where I last left you. In the same spot. The same face. The same hopeful look in your eyes. But my love? I only love when the lights are out and you can't see that my body bears no soul and my eyes don't shine when our bodies are joined. My lips make no sound as I find solace in your body.I love when the lights are out, and I can easily hide, and you won't cry after having to accept the fact there's no one there when you call out my name. I'm nothing but flesh and bones. Deteriorating. Disappearing.
          But isn't that enough? I tell you to call out sometimes. To shout. Shout to me. Tell me how much you love me. Scream my name. Maybe it can reach me. Somewhere within the nooks and crannies of hell that I've crawled into.
          Because my love, I'll only love you when the lights are out. When I can't see your face and come face to face with the fact you and my mother have something in common.You both are foolish enough to believe you can save broken men with empty bodies and lost souls.
          And I'm none other than my father's son. A disaster in the making. Loathing my own existence, waiting the moment I show that I share a monster's blood.
          But my love? I only love you when the lights are out. If I ever grow teeth to sink into your fragile body and tear out your supple flesh, maybe the darkness will save you, keep you out of my reach. When disaster comes and I turn into what he told me I'd become.
          Please call out to me. Scream my name. Tell me how much you love me. Tell me how much you love me, if it ever pierces through and reaches me. if I ever hear you.
          I only love you when the lights are out and we're nothing but touches and brief moments and you're not something important.

Me writing a short story where a woman dies every time she remembers her immortal lover and they can only escape the curse if she kills him. 
          Me watching seven deadly sins years later and seeing it’s basically the same aside from the killing maybe. 

Chapter 64 is out now! 
          https://www.patreon.com/posts/sapphire-blue-64-127117155?utm_medium=clipboard_copy&utm_source=copyLink&utm_campaign=postshare_creator&utm_content=join_link

Does wattpad have an issue? It's not saving changes in my new chapter so I can post it.

@soulmace no charge. I am not a professional or anything, but would love to help!

Thank you for updating. Not sure if you have someone that proofreads your work but I would love to do that for you. Love the stories!

I js read "Sapphire Blue" in like four days and am obsessed lol <3

Would it be too weird to go back and like all your comments? I was just going through them and you guys have no business being so funny lmao you're the best!

Hello my loves! Did you miss me? Because I missed you all so freaking much! 
          I'm happy to announce Sapphire Blue is up again! New chapter 55  uploaded for everyone here on wattpad while I'll post new ones on Patreon! Hope you all love it!  Can't wait to interact with you guys again.