Hi everyone. I am well aware that I have purposely disappeared from wattpad for a while. It's honestly been a rather big and anxiety-filled decision for me as during the time that I've been away, I've considered deleting everything and maybe just never coming back. This is probably been the one millionth time I've said this but my mental health has suffering, as well as my physical health. I am constantly tired physically, mentally, and emotionally. There are times where I lay in bed all day, neglecting physical care. I've mostly been in this deep pit of suppression where I feel nothing at all, even when I should allow myself too, and at the end of it all would only be heavy crying and anxiety attacks. During all of that, I have lost many passions. I was losing my passion to live (and no, I don't mean that in a suicidal way, don't worry), and along with that, I was losing my passion to write, a thing that I love profusely. In all honesty, I just don't feel good enough, and I don't know if I ever will and maybe that's why I was in such a rush to delete all my work off the internet without a trace.
But, I don't want to give up.
I don't know when I'll get something up here again, but I hope that you'll be patient with me and I'm sorry for letting you guys down. I've recently purchased pens and a notebook which I hope can catapult me back into what I love doing most. It's amazing to see how much I've come back to, which also motivates me to keep going.
I love you guys so much and I'm sorry for this major inconvenience. I'll try to be more active, whether that's writing, or just spending time reading some works on wattpad. I'm working on responding to all of you lovely's comments now.
