Jazz

Im deleting this account. My abusive mother seems to have gotten onto my Google account and changed the phone number and password. So I'm deleting my account for my own safety. 
          
          Thank you all so much for being with me here. If you manage to find my new account, feel free to say hi
          
          Jazz out

Fuck this. I'm restarting TCOTAM again. I hate where it's going

CHAPTER FOOOOOUUUUUURRRR

actually i'm on fire tonight WOO (i wrote 5 pages lol) also imma try this bit of advice from Stephen King which is to write at least 3 pages a day and not care how good it is.

FINALLY ON DRAFT ONE CHAPTER THREE BABEEEYYYY

ngl i'm really tempted to redo the first few chapters of tcatm because i already don't like what i've done so far with the first draft and i've come up with a slightly better status quo.  buuuut at the same time, i feel like i have to finish the first draft before i make any changes to the starting point.  idk, i really don't like being neurodivergent asf LMFAO.  what do you guys think?

A lil update:
          Tcotam progress is still hella slow and my English skills seem to have gone down, which really doesn't help. But, I'm trying. I might take a break from it so I can get Iver my writer's block. 

Life update: so the last few days were very eventful (very personal so I'm not gonna elaborate) and they made me realise that I have a lot of anxiety problems, especially when it comes to relationships (both platonic and romantic). I have a lot of difficulty trusting people, I walk on eggshells when I don't need to and I often assume the worst of even those who are closest to me. And I realised that that level of anxiety is not normal and that there may be something wrong.
          
          I don't exactly know what, it could just be my autism/suspected adhd or my rejection sensitivity dysphoria being particularly severe or I have some sort of anxiety disorder or a result of some emotional trauma that i had been through. I need to do some research and maybe talk with a doctor/therapist  about it. Cuz I genuinely believe that there is a problem and I need to know what it is so I can do something about it. If you guys have any suggestions as to what to do or anything like that please let me know.
          
          As for tcotam, progress has been as slow as ever. I lost 'my' laptop (I say its mine but its technically my mum's) so it's not like I can make any progress. College is starting again soon so at least I'll be able to use those computers to write when I can (I've shared the Google doc for draft 1 with my college account so I'm able to access it in and out of college).
          
          But right now, I'm feeling pretty good so that's nice. And I'm looking forward to college too so uhh yeah
          
          Anyways peace out

today be the day in which my 18 year free trial ends and i can now leglly drink in my country.
          
          (is my birfday :D)

tcotam progress be very slow bc once again im losing motivation UGH (it's the fucking dialogue I SUCK SO BADLY AT WRITING IT AND I HATE IT WHY CAN'T I WRITE A DECENT CONVERSATION AYCBBR)
          
          also been getting new ideas to spice up the plot a little, which hasnt been helping :')
          
          ALSO, also i miiiight update my gorillaz headcanons book bc i may have a few ideas for a chapter, maybe