j i l l i a n

You still alive?

i need to update all of my wattpad stuff. my theme, my bio, etc. 
          
          but i don't want to let go? why am i emotionally attached to my wattpad aesthetic?

i have one short story left and then i'm done with my book! ahhh!
          
          it's actually crazy. i found some agents who might be interested according to what they're looking for, and i plan to send out my manuscript. 
          
          but holy sht, it's scary and such a big process. i want to do it, but wowie. 
          
          wish me luck! hopefully i'll be able to finish this part soon so i can jump onto editing. we'll see!

i am another block with writing, clearly. i feel like i always am.
          
          but i'm falling back in love with reading, so i'd love some book recs! i'm always happier when i'm reading, and it'll hopefully get me back to writing. the two seem to be linked.

it’s been another minute oops.
          
          i won fifth place at my state beta convention in creative writing (!!!) 
          
          i still can’t believe it, but i haven’t been able to write much since? it’s like i’m overthinking it.
          
          any tips for that?

wow, happy new year lol
          
          i forgot about the challenge? i'm a mess? like a big one? but that's okay.
          
           i'm planning a short story book with kai and wren. i just want to hurry up and put a book together. i'm only going to get busier and busier. 
          
          i already have a good amount of work already, it's just a matter of filling in gaps and piecing it together.
          
          wish me luck!

day fifteen of reading a chapter/writing 500 words!
          
          today, december 20th, i made my finishing touches to 'a welsh christmas'. it will go up tomorrow hopefully. 
          
          i also read some of charles bukowski's 'on love' online. i really want to like poetry, and i've been told i'd like him. i still couldn't get into it unfortunately. 
          
          on to tomorrow.

day fourteen of reading a chapter/writing 500 words!
          
          today, december 17th, i wrote the rest of 'a welsh christmas'. i finally found a good ending. 
          
          i also read fanfiction, oops. 
          
          on to tomorrow.

day thirteen of reading a chapter/writing 500 words!
          
          today, december 16th, i wrote in a four hundred prompts book my friend got me for christmas because she's great and considerate and yeah. 
          
          i also read the introduction of my stained copy of jane eyre. i've had it for a little less than a year and i've left it sitting at my desk for that time. it can be easy to ignore simple things. 
          
          on to tomorrow.

day twelve of reading a chapter/writing 500 words!
          
          today, december 15th, i wrote in my journal about therapy, lexie sleeping with karev on grey's anatomy, and my feelings (duh).
          
          i also read manager josh's entry in dodie's book. the last paragraph is kind and makes me wonder what it's liked to be so kindly cared for by someone who doesn't have to. 
          
          on to tomorrow.