@spade_solitare69
WOAH. ITS ME. anyway im like gonna be permanently "inactive" id say. I dont really use wattpad anymore except for the occasional checking my notifications. Anyways, this is kind of like a goodbye to yall, i wont delete the account and ill come back sometimes, but for now, this is it.
Thought id rise from the dead just for the gay month (aka ill like post every now and again maybe)
OK WHO WANTS ME AND MY FRIEND TO WRITE MODERN AU OF GREEK MYTHS AND HEROES BUT IT ENDS HAPPILY EVER AFTER (SOMETIMES) AND ITS ALL ON THE SAME TIMELINE????????
Omg everyone is going absolutely feral over possessed Raine like- okay calm down you simp
@PQR32HI NAH NO WAY WHAT, ALSO IDK HOW BUT I KEEP GETTING TT OF PEOPLE SIMPING OVER BELOS BUT I KEEP WATCHING BEING LIKE 'ok wheres the silly goofy music saying ur kidding?'
@spade_solitare69 I saw a TT of someone going “I really want human Belos back he’s so fine ” BABE ???
Do you ever just fake being happy so much sad things arent even sad, like oh great, several people in my family are dying haha like what lmao
@spade_solitare69 and your like that until it hits you all at once when you have to actually face it. Also, do you ever fake being happy so much it’s gotten to the point that you can’t cry anymore no matter how much you need to?
Dude I’m going onto Ao3 wish me luck
@spade_solitare69 actually never mind that I sorted by word count and shit there’s some good stuff on here
@spade_solitare69 I went there I could find literally nothing every book was like 2 chapters why can’t I find any good fanfiction anywhere
@PQR32HI NOOOO I WAS TOO LATE, IM SORRY I COULDNT SAVE YOU, I HOPE YOU DIDNT ENCOUNTER ANYTHING HORRIFYING DURING YOUR TRIPPPPPP
NOT ME THINKING VORE MENT VERBAL GORE, AS IN WRITTEN AND THEN I SEARCH IT UP AND I GO ‘OHHHH SHITTTTTT’ AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
@spade_solitare69 bold of you to assume I have windows, I might be in a straight jacket in a padded room for all you know
@spade_solitare69 I actually tried to put a punching emoji but wattpad wouldn’t let me. Anyway I would break your back and leave you to slowly die in the snow so your spinal fluids can slowly leak out of your body, seeping into the ground while your in constant extreme agony like that one scene from The Santa Clause
heyyyyyyy, does anyone know a website that will review my poem and correct me? if so i’d love to know :]
@spade_solitare69 All poetry is a good website, but having a person review it would probably be best
@PQR32HI THAT IS GOOD ENOUGH THANK YOU SO MUCH BC I DONT KNOW HOW TO POEM VERY WELL
@spade_solitare69 I know a few sites that you can post poems but none that will proof read them sorry
Hihihihihi I have a bunch of random stories and questions to ask you because I’m feeling hyperactive this morning and my fingers need to type shit.
So, stories- 1. I am now pagan and awaiting my first deck of tarot cards because I’m just so cool 2. In art I found these letter beads and was going to make a necklace of my name until I realised that I don’t really have one because I hate my given name but haven’t found a good new one so instead I made a necklace of YOUR name (or at least the most up to date one I could find) and if any of my friends find it they’re probably gonna think you’re some guy I have a crush on which is really funny 3. My school psychologist tried to prescribe me anti depressants because she thinks I’m really fucked up but my mother says no because she doesn’t think that being drugged will help my mental state at all (she’s probably right) 4. I’m in the process of getting diagnosed with Autism which could take 2 years and honestly idk how to feel
Now questions- one. If you could die in any way how would you die, and not in like a sad way nonono I don’t want to make you sad but like if you lived your life to the fullest and got to pick the way it ended two. If you did die before coming out to everybody in your life would you want them to know that you’re a guy or is that kind of scary three. Pink, yes or no you have 13 seconds and finally NUMERO QUAD. If you did die your parents would most likely look through your phone and find out EVERYTHING, how does that make you feel on a scale of one - 13
Sorry so many of the questions were about death and sorry if I made you sad ily /platonic and also do you have any name suggestions because I really really really hate my deadname (can I call it that if I still use it?) but I’m shit with names (also don’t feel like you need to respond to everything in this I’m just super excited this morning) (also I’m gonna keep rambling because I want to see if I can hit the word limit I’m like 20 words away and rip)
@spade_solitare69 My mother probably wouldn’t get them even if I did ask, she wants to try some different methods before resorting to medication. Also SAGE I LOVE it feels feminine but also the kind of name you’d never really heard a cis person have unless their parents were hippies or pagans (also it gives pagan vibes which is pretty perfect) Also yeah your happiness matters way more than their friends if people can’t accept you that’s their problem. I hope you had a good day, thanks for putting up with my random rambling
@PQR32HI ah yes. time to answer hehe, i love answering questions honestly. ok so the first question was how i would die, this might not happen, but it’s my dream way to die. i would like to be curbstomped i reckon, it just seems fun! if i did die before coming out fully, i would want everyone to know, but it probably wouldnt happen because my mom has already said several times that me being like that could ruin her and my brothers lives because their friends might not accept me, but why do their friends matter more than my happiness, yknow? but yeah, i would want everyone to know. next question is- hOLY SWEET JESUS- UH YES? my parents already have looked through my phone, like several days ago. but if they were to fully go through my phone, like the stuff i said not to touch, then i they would probably cry, but on a scale of one to thirteen, i would say thirteen. ok, name suggestions, (yeah you can call it your deadname, even if you still use it :]) what about sage? i will look for more name, but right now that’s all i could think of. reaction to the stories: 1. That sounds awesome! you have to give me a reading as soon as you get them. 2. lmao, one of my friends put the initials of their grandfather on something, which just so happens to also be their boyfriends initials which is kinda similar. 3. well it doesn’t hurt to try, right? maybe like just for a short period of time try them to see if they change anything or not, but if you don’t want to, that’s up to you :D 4. OOOO CONGRATS!!!!!! i’m super happy for you!!!!!! even though it could take too years it’s still really good, also you have to tell me the results! after two years :]
Also friends as in people I have to hangout with but don’t like because they’re homophobic and kinda shitty ppl
I am going to delete twitte istg
@PQR32HI SPANISH WOOHOO HEHEHE I PROBABLY WILL NEVER NEED TO USE IT BUT EH WHATEVER
@spade_solitare69 that sounds rough. If the lgbtq community IS a religion than we’re not forcing it on kids anymore than Christianity already has been. They send flyers for Christian clubs home in backpacks, they send letters telling people of ‘the good news’ even Christmas is unnecessarily forced on everyone when it’s literally just Yule, that they STOLE from pagans.