@spaghettirunners
chat announcement, i am back on wattpad. i took a slight detour to the realm of ao3 to read a ryan ross and brendon urie fic called the heart rate of a mouse and another called in case the scene gets nasty and 100% HIGHLY RECOMMEND HOLY JESUS THEY WERE AMAZING but alas i am back on ole wattpad lets go!
chat whats the last kellic fic you read ive read like all of the popular ones and a bunch of unpopulars so im feigning for more thx ;~;
idk why its not showing up on my board but i posted a story!! read the first chapter and lmk if you want me to continue it chat
also totally not deep anymore but should i start writing fanfic lol? ive been reading for like all my teenage years maybe itll be fun lol ok now bye for real
im gonna get deep for a min so bare with me. i dont have anywhere else to put this, so why not turn to wattpad huh?
i love so much and i also despise too and im tired and im sick. well actually i am physically sick with the flu. but i mean im sick of it all but i also love so much of the things in life but i hate so much too. i love music. and the way i can feel from it (dont get it twisted im not talking about fuckin over produced cash grabs) im talking about raw and like, passionate music. i listen to post hardcore emo rock mostly and i just love. i also love love. like i love that people can feel so strongly towards other people, that its only enough if they can fuse themselves together. but they cant so they settle for closing the distance as much as they can. and i think thats so sweet. and i love how everything has a place in this world in its own way, like everyone has their own little task lists and are on their own little wavelength that everything just flows through time. like im not tryna be cryptic or anything, i just think its so cool. i also love the little human details. like when someone has habits that are just a part of their person, like scrunching their nose when they talk, or fidgeting or the way they say something, or whatever. but i hate too. like i hate complaining without any attempt to fix anything. just complaining to complain, or being hateful towards everything for no reason. similar to when someone has nothing to say and they fill the silence with 'im tired,' despite not actually being tired. i also hate peoples blatant disregard to the fact that this world does not just belong to humans. and the way we dont give a shit about how the other thousands of species are impacted by our actions, strictly because they cant communicate with us, or because its them whos decisions dont impact us as much as ours impacts them.
im sick of myself too. like i have these external battles and grievances about what has become of the world, but i also have my internal problems. like i dont like myself, and i never sleep enough (despite just saying im tired) and i feel like my body is always against me. i hate my skin, i have acne, i hate my body, i have an ED, i have adhd and get depressed sometimes and i hate myself for being so vain to care about these things. i feel like i need a deep soul clense, like i need to delete all social media and get a flip phone and live in solidarity at a research base in antarctica, with minimal people, and just the raw nature that hasnt been fucked with yet. (other than global warming which i also hate that people dont take seriously). or i need to go to a retreat, like a darkness retreat and just pull away from socialization for a little bit. you know the story of christopher mccandless? i read it last year in school, and there wasnt a way to describe just how much i related to him and would do what he did. unfortunately though doing that would be withdrawing not only from the things i hate but the things i love too, and i just cant do that yet. maybe later on. thats my deepness for the day, thanks for reading. i just have these thoughts and i have to let them out before they eat me. ok bye
i hate when people are so normal that they have no flavor. like when they dont have any interests, and judge when you actually do. or when those people dont live because they think its cringe. i dont like how peoples variety has dissolved so much that the only way they can be 'funny' is through fuckin brainrot jokes, or social media algorithm stupidity. i feel like we've regressed so far in creativity simply because we have resources that hand us the opportunity to do absolutely nothing on a silver platter because we don't have to. our world no longer runs on human interaction or creation, but on technology. people are losing their personality because we validate just wasting away doomscrolling on social media. same reason we have no attention span anymore. everyone here is an addict, and if you say youre not then your a liar too. i hate liars. people who lie for no reason. people who believe that everything in the world has to be relatable to them, that if its not catered to them then it has no value. people who lack empathy. i just hate, but i lovee too and im tired all the time. like i could sleep forever. that is satisfying.
should i write my 6 page paper that i havent even started thats due tonight or should i start a kellic fic hmmm hmmmm decisions decisions *opens my reading list*
lowkey loving wattpad sm more than ao3 rn cause of the comments. the comments make or break the fic imo i love
It's time to take you home
It feels so early, but I promised I would bring you to your door
Now our lips are numb as we walk, sharing warm alcohol
That kiss tastes like summer
I hope you like the stars I stole for you
One hundred million twinkle lights in neon blue
I'll be the brightest someday
I'll be the brightest someday
I'll be the brightest, you'll see
Don't rain on my parade
It's gonna glow in the dark
I like it better when you can't keep warm
Don't ruin a perfect thing, a perfect thing
The boy on the blue moon dreams of sun
Now as the rain falls like shattered pieces of glass from the sky
We bleed like water colours and drunken pastels down the stairways
And I ask myself: "Why do I still pray?
When will it end? And who fucking cares?"
I swear to God, I did what I could
I practically begged you
I pretended everything was fine
A soul sacrifice, an american nightmare
I'd rather be dead
Don't rain on my parade
It's gonna glow in the dark
I like it better when you can't keep warm
Don't ruin a perfect thing, a perfect thing
The boy on the blue moon hears a nightmare in his head
I'll bet you money has you running to the bathroom
You barely started drinking, but your beauty never stopped you
You died in California by the sulfur and the sea
I guess I never should have loved you
But I do forever 'cause you loved me
And I break my glasses as I fall in the street
If you were gonna leave this world, how could it be without me?
Now it's all over my tongue and it still has no taste
'Cause without you there is no me
There's no me at all
Sometimes love
Love dies like
Dies like a
Love dies like a dog
(So, why don't we just this one take care of itself?)
Don't rain on my parade
It's gonna glow in the dark
I like it better when you can't keep warm
Don't ruin a perfect thing, a perfect thing
The boy on the blue moon dreams
Don't rain on my parade, woah, no
I'm losing a perfect thing
A perfect thing
A perfect thing
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i see you in every single kellic fanfic