spicybcyi
hii wattpad world
I know naman na hindi ka kaibigan or therapist ko pero alam mo yon I find comfort and safe place in this platform?
So ano ba gusto ko ikwento? I just got my heart broken. It got broken by the women I loved. I'll tell you she's my great love, wanna know why? She's the one who I loved but will never have and she's the one who taught me lessons about love. Up until now I can confirm that I still love this women and it's indeed difficult to unlove someone you greatly love and you still want to love. We were just in talking stage or we can say situationship? To me it was serious and I was committed in the first place because I just don't talk to everyone when it comes to love. So yeah we talked to each other and I guess we had something? To me it was everything and genuine but to her I don't know what was I at her heart. She wasn't moved on from the past, she wasn't healed. And so I never placed anything close to her loving heart but a placeholder to the love she deserves. I wasn't loved for being me I was only loved for the cost of the love I could give and that hurts the most to me. Knowing that I wasn't anything at all. I was just someone who really isn't valued in the first place. I was just used. Rebound lang naman talaga ako e :))
Umasa ako ng lubos at sa lahat. Binuhos ko lahat ng pagmamahal sakanya. Ginawa ko naman lahat lahat para sakanya at para manatili kami. Akala ko talaga meron na para sa akin e. Akala ko talaga magugustuhan mo ako. Akala ko talaga nakita mo ako at gusto mo sumubok ulit pero hindi e. Kahit ilang beses ako magbigay ng space never mapupunoan yan ng ako kasi hung up ka pa sa past mo. Tangina ang sakit. Nakakagago. Never mo talaga ako magugustuhan e :)) Never mo talaga akong mamahalin kasi you just liked how I treated you. You will never appreciate me for what I am. You will never appreciate my soul.
spicybcyi
Umiiyak ako ng umiiyak kay God na bakit pa tayo pinagtagpo kung ganitong sakit lang din naman matatanggap ko. Paulit ulit ko rin tinatanong sa sarili ko habang umiiyak bakit ako ginanito? I really don't know if someone could love me for who I am anymore. Kasi sobrang sakit nito. Sobrang sakit pala magmahal. Sobrang sakit pala na hindi ka mahalin talaga.
At this point, hindi ko matukoy pa kung bakit pa ako aasa sayo, sa atin, kung wala naman talagang ako? Hindi na worth it. One sided. Ako na lang yong natitira dito e. Sobrang sakit lang talaga :)) Hindi ko maintindihan pa.
Alam ko it takes time kaya I will take time talaga. Bukas na bukas na ako. The only way to go is to step more. Natatanggap ko na lahat. Hindi na ako magpapalamon sa sakit.
I am letting you go bebe, my jagiya.
I am letting you go.
I am setting you free.
I am setting myself free.
I am done waiting.
I am done hoping.
I am done considering others feelings.
I am letting go.
I am not holding on anymore.
I am not fearing anymore.
No attachments.
Goodbye.
