spiduperman

Hi everyone, Jai's sister here. 
          
          I'm very sorry it's been such a long time since I've gotten back to you all. I see so many messages on his message board and birthday wishes that I know he would have loved. I want to thank you all so much for not forgetting him, it was something he was truly afraid of.
          
          Life has been crazy these past few years, but its calming down for me and I hope it's been a good few years to you all. Feel free to message me or continue to write on his board, its heart-warming to see it all. 
          
          Love you guys very much

Its been a year and a quarter. 2 years since Ryan left us. Feels still weird not talking to my lil baby and loverboy anymore. I also found out really bad news about my brother but his treatment will start and he'll get better. Just wish u were still here with me, to help thats all you ever did was help me, and im forever grateful. 
          I still miss you and i always will.
          Love mummy cat❤️

Hi everyone, I'm Jai's sister for those of you who haven't met me. He gave me his account. He loved you all, alot.
          He wrote a short book for all of you. His feeling and such, thanking you. I found it the day he left, and I didn't want to keep it to myself. I feel like alot of you may need to see it. I want to thank you all as well, for being his friend and for loving him. It means alot.
          I left it just as he wrote it. No changes, no adding. All Jai.
          If any of you have any   ideas on something you'd like me to do, please pm me.

I wish someone would say this is a joke . I miss you so much and lost you so many times I guess that's why I can't come to the terms your really gone. And that your not coming back again. I'm going to miss you. But I'm so glad we have all the memories that we do. I'll never forget when you ate that crayon or that time you got tooth paste in tour eye. I'll never forget the plan we had to see each other over the summer. I miss you jai I miss everything there was about you. I hope your okay I love you jai jai bear

Wow you really are gone. Jai I'm so proud of you for lasting so long. Thank you for being the best thing ever. I'm glad you're feeling better now. No more pain I just wish I could of said goodbye. I love you jai jai bear

Hey baby Jai
          Ive found out you're gone. 
          I know you wont be happy that i cried when i found out. Its only been 3/4 days  it just feels really erm..boring quiet. Which i dont like. You always made me smile by your giddiness (it was adorable) Playin with Wolffie was  the part that made me smile the most, especially with Ryan ya know Daddy, least now you get to properly meet him up there now. Cant belive ive lost both of you now.  
          
          But now i know you were too good for this world so you left
          Everything turned red then you made an exit"
          
          
          Byebye baby hope you enjoy yourself up there with no more pain or suffering just you. Be happy up there and remembered that i'll always love you
          
          ~ mummy Cat❤️
          "

@onedirection233 oki

Awwwww My Baby!! You have the cutest self made bio ever!! I love you bunches little one!!! *smiles and tickles you*

<3

Put the blade down
          Eat your meal
          Put the rope away
          Don't you see?
          This isn't a solution,
          Just a bigger problem.
          So please stop, 
          I love you so,
          It would kill me to see you go.
          You may not see it
          But you are loved
          By so many
          Don't do it 
          Please