springs_rj

i was hanging out with my friends and they started to kinda talk bad/talk down about hoseoks debut single and it made me feel bad bc I actually really liked it and I related to the lyrics about improving one’s craft and wanting to create more, but they were talking bad about it. they were talking bad about a few other songs and it just killed my mood completely bc i really resonate with the meaning of a lot of their songs and I have become better since I started stanning, so to have them talk bad about the songs even if they were joking to get a reaction from me made me feel really bad. i don’t think they noticed that I wasn’t vibing with their “jokes”. i want to tell them it was hurtful to hear them say the things they said when some of the songs they were talking bad about were songs I resonated with, but I don’t think they’ll take me seriously or they’ll probably think I’m overreacting, but this really ruined my whole day://

also been having thoughts about who I am as a person and my identity. idk how to go about this with my irls but idk what to do tbh. 

been having thoughts about the stuff I’ve uploaded and would like to continue. sometimes tho I feel like it’s a lil weird to be writing ffs but at this point it’s just face/name claims bc I have no plans for any original characters 

no one I know irl is on here so I will use this as a place to vent

:(

quarantine got me with free time that I use unwisely 

hahahaha guess whos phone got taken away bc even tho i do everything my parents ask of me!!!ist me, i got my phone snatched T^T

hahaha thanks dad for making me feel like I’m worthless again :’)

Sad boy hours: oN TO THE MAX :’)))))

it’s nice to be forgotten by your friends and ignored when u bring up feeling forgotten:’))